I recently got engaged to a woman I think is magical, but when I think of my wedding, I know my Dad won't be there. My dad was my best friend, a very passionate guy, very hot blooded too I guess. I was so scared of someone when I was a kid, someone hurt me, so I acted out and my Ma sent me to him to punish me but it made us so close. He taught me so much, like how to camp, how to start a fire at the campsite, how to work on cars, how to fight, he even gave some of my first diecast cars (I still have them in my collection.) When I feel anxious like today, when I feel like this guy is back, I wish my dad was still here. I would do anything, just to hear his voice, miss his laugh so much. Miss him. I am sad my soon to be kids will never meet him, I am sad my wife will never meet him, I know he would have loved her as a daughter in law, she's so amazing. I will never have that father/ daughter dance, my stepdad don't like me that much. I sometimes feel so alone without him, like he was the only thing that made me decent. Miss him so much.