I am sorry your mom had to leave in such a tragic way. Losing a mom is beyond hard. It's been little over a year for me and the grief is overwhelming.

Huge hug Why.... I am so very sorry for the pain that you and all who you love are in

I believe that there are groups for the families of victims of violence.... I would seek out one of these groups.... They may be a great source of support for you sweetie

The grief for you may have turned into depression as it sometimes does... I would also see your family doctor if you haven't to discuss this....

You may think that it can't help but it can help some if depression is addressed.... We have a good and active depression board on here as well

Another huge hug and a blessing

There are several groups on google that may also be of help for you Why.... I will also put up links here for our depression group and our PTSD group.....xo

Depression board

https://www.dailystrength.org/group/depression

I don't know if this could be PTSD related Why but I thought I would also put up a link.... We also have an Anxiety board that might be of help to you....xo

https://www.dailystrength.org/group/post-traumatic-stress-disorder-ptsd

I’m so sorry for your loss, friend. My heart goes out to you. Losing a special person is very hard, and the impact of such a loss is deep. The sorrow can affect in many ways. Each of us deal with loss in our own unique way. I lost my dad two years ago and it still hurts. I’d suggest that you talk to a grief counselor. Do you have a support group nearby? Please know that you deserve to feel better and you don’t need to carry your burdens alone. Take good care of yourself. Sending hugs your way!

my 28 yr old son ( very close ) was murdered 2.5 years ago . ive read every scrap i can get my hands on re ; homicide , justice , grief , forensics , etc . im with you on the hate . some people have a need to forgive -- others do not . these killers are getting close to justice . my son was lured out while a killer laid in wait . capital criteria in indiana . id gladly push the plunger if permitted to . justice isnt a casual afterthought , its a huge factor in the process of healing ones broken heart .

i married a cheater many years ago . i forgave her for the sake of our family . she repeated the behavior a few years later . see how forgiveness works ? not worth a SHIT ..