I'm so so sorry for your loss Sweetie. Grandmas are such dear people to us. I grieved horribly and for long periods of time when I lost both of mine.
I lost my dad in Dec. and the pain is still very fresh, so I understand your pain.
Let yourself grieve and feel. Writing helped me tremendously. I wrote a letter to my dad daily for weeks after he passed. I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers. God bless.

Thank you, I write her sometimes but not sure if it helps.

Gentle hug and a blessing summer......Grief can sure be a painful process.... You wrote that you lost your Grandma 2 years ago and it's still having a profound effect on you?

Grief can evolve into a grief depression..... If this is still having a big effect on you living your life sweetie I would go and see your family doctor.... You might need some medical help summer

Grief therapy can also help a great deal.....xo

I agree with Sun; I went to a grief class at a local hospital to help deal with my father's passing. I highly recommend it! Finding a match that is good for you is critical! the class I took was run by a minister, but the faith content was well within what I needed and could deal with so it worked for me.

I have learned many lessons here about how to deal with grief; one that stands out is that we need to strive for the day when we can think of things that our loved one would have liked, and instead of being sad, we need to be able to smile and think how much they would have liked it. It can be hard to do this, but as I have gotten closer to it I have felt much better. (There will always be days when it hurts to think about them, but as more and more years pass I will have a larger percentage of happy thoughts!)

gentle hugs, it can be a hard journey

Grief is a process and everyone processes grief differently. Your grandma must have been a beautiful soul. Writing in a journal is helpful and writing a letter to her, as previously suggested is helpful as well.
One of the golden rules when you are grieving is to be good to yourself. Every week pick do one thing on how you were good/taking care of you. It can be a simple thing: watching a movie, going out to eat, getting flowers, whatever it maybe....but it must be for you.
Grieving takes up an incredible amount of energy, thinking at times can be difficult.
It takes time, but things do get better.