rocking you gently and crying with you, wesley. . .

sometimes life just sucks.

No one really reveals this side of grief... I'm proud of you! We all feel this way from time to time, but it's how you respond to it long term that can really either kick your butt or motivate you to begin to start to breath tiny shallow breaths and claw your way through the haze and tears and begin to take those baby steps of moving into the new normal of living life without our loved one. Take all the time you need to grieve. Mourn, wail and cry out about the unjustice of it all. We all get it here. Death sucks! Moving on sucks! It's okay to NOT be okay. We each grieve so personally and individually, what works for one may not ever work for another. Deep Breath. Breathe. Deep Breath. Breathe. Focus on the small things that you can do and let the rest go... for now. You WILL get through this... one way or another, you WILL get through. Even though you don't want to... you will.

@Rosey. Thanks for saying it's ok not to be ok. Their intentions are good, but I get tired of people not wanting me to feel my pain.

@MelT2020 I totally get that! Take some time to back away for self care and choose to block out dissenting opinions. Grief is very personal and the timing is too. Feeling pain and processing through it all is very necessary and healthy way to heal and begin to move forward, if most cannot understand that then that is their own personal problem.

Huge hug Wesley .... I am so sorry for all the pain that you're in... and all of the loss that you've had.... Another hug....xo

I've not been I really feel your pain. Our identities are tied to our immediate relatives and it feels like we are an extension of theirs and they are an extension of ours. I know that time doesn’t heal; this past weekend I was sobbing so missing my mom who I lost almost 11 years ago. I barely have any friends and the siblings I have left are hundreds and some thousands of miles away. I know you posted in November 2021, has anything improved in you situation? I remember that my greatest strength came from being on this support group, two people held my hand and walked with me for several years after I lost my mom and brother within one year of each other. I hope you can find that kind of support. I would have been so lost without those two wonderful women, (one who is now deceased). You can always reach out to me too if you need support.
Please take care of yourself
on D.S for several years but I came back today and saw your post

I pray that things have gotten a little more manageable for you. Loss is a very lonely and crippling feeling. I pray you find relief in knowing that there is a reason you are still here.....you have purpose