I just had a self realization that I'd like to share. And i hope you read.

Today has been probably my worst day this week. Woke uo with the anxiety pit it my stomach. Had my body pains bothering me all day that have been gone earlier in the week. I, by myself, got myself ready, got both my kids up, made both of them breakfast, got them ready, cleaned uo my daughters shit (yes, literal shit) off the bathroom floor, got her to school, decided to go on a walk to help my mood, came home and did laundry and dishes, cleaned the whole house, picked my daughter up from preschool, fed both my kids lunch and put them both to nap.

When they awake my oldest decided she wanted to go on a walk. So we did. We came home and she wanted to go again, so we did. We came home and i made dinner, gave both of them baths and got them ready for bed. I did all of this throughout my day struggling to not have a panick attack the entire time, and trying not to cry. Battling my anxiety every step of the way. And as i think about all this i realized....wow. I am a total badass. 

Ive never thought that before. Or given myself credit at all. But you know what..no matter what im feeling inside i do my best and i get it done. And to anybody reading this  (if anybody reads this) i want you to know that you are a fellow badass. You are struggling with something and you are trying to help yourself. You are making it every single day. Give yourself a pat on the back. Because you know what.....you deserve it. And then some.