I'm trying my best to enjoy being reunited with my loved ones during this almost-ending spring break. However, I'm just scared of two things: the misery I will feel when I lose them again, and what my school bullies are up to next. I don’t want to feel like I can't live without them, but what if I actually cannot bear myself. What if I can't handle this life? I don't want to go back to school! Bullies are constantly trying to come uo with new schemes to both physically and mentally hurt me. There will always be something stupid and new.. My regular class teachers (health, science, advisory) have this sort of bias against my ethnicity and the magnet program I'm in. If I try to tell a teacher about the bullies, he/she would be like, “Sucks for you!” or “They would never do such a thing!” or “Deal with it yourself. It’s not even that bad!” Yeah right...as if almost getting bruised is not a big deal. As if feeling too uncomfortable to cry is not a big deal. You know, no big deal! I don't matter enough, you know. The usual. It's miraculous, yet traumatizing moments like this that give me no will to go on with my life.