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venting ramble

arfie
arfie

thoughts are running through my head like random dust devils, from ancient herstory to conjectured futures. for those of you who don't know what a dust devil is: 


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ysc1pMFK0dk


quite a few of my therapy retreats of the 80's and 90's were held in the pecos valley in west texas. dust devils are especially vivid visualizations for my meditations on intrusive thoughts. the dust devils of the pecos valley are something to watch, even without psychotherapy points to ponder.


there is quite allot of diverse activity going on in my life right now. much of it, such as 3 thriving elementary school sudents and farm management. is good. other parts, such as a 43 year old estranged son looking for fruit from the money tree and taking a substantial loss on the sale of the urban paradise i have dubbed, "the toxic mom throne," are not so good. by whatever judgement, it is allot of balls to juggle. with my attention being pulled in so many directions at once, intrusive thoughts are no great surprise. alas, in this particular spin of the not-so-merry-go-round, those intrusive thoughts are escalating to painful. time to up the therapy maintenance. 


so, here i be. . . striving to get ^it^ into words. no advice requested. support in sorting needed, welcome and appreciated. on my personal recovery road, the sharing of strictly personal experience, first person singular, is often the best support i have found. it helps to know i am not alone.


again i leave the mood icon on the rapid cycling median. i am fine. how are you?

malibumark
malibumark
I’m just reminded of how when I juggle too many balls I become stressed, splintered and fatigued. As much as I feel I should be my old 27 energetic self, I can’t kick myself in the pants anymore to have that kind of stamina anymore at 55. I need to take extra rest and food and nurturing in real life and online. Peace Arfie
arfie
arfie
my old energetic self had hurricane level energy when i was 27. that level of energy was far better at destruction than building. ya ever been kicked in the pants by a hurricane? girl, howdy, i was mean when i kicked myself in the pants, both literally and figuratively.

at 69, i finally have the energy of a normal teenager and am enjoying the ability to work smarter, not harder. i guess i'm currently wondering if respecting those awkward silences, and the mysteries echoing therein, would be the smarter work.
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