You are doing a lot of very good things to control anxiety. You might need to up the dosages and the doc is probably going to do that anyway to find out just where you need to be. It is a little bit of trial, so be ready for that. Work with your TDoc and them what is bothering you. Work at getting at the core of that. It can take some time. But I think you are doing every right to help yourself out of this anxiety you are in.

@Thor2008 The psychiatrist just raised my dosage of Rameron to 30mg last week. I'm still in disbelief. The only thing stressing me out is my condition, because it really came out of nowhere and I don't seem to have much control over it. It's just there. Thank you for the encouraging words. I just don't seem to understand what the issue is with all of this. I was diagnosed with GAD, but I'm so hoping to get through all of this soon...it's exhausting

Dealing with anxiety truly is exhausting, so be gentle with yourself. Full "remission" can take time, and it tends, at least in my experience, to sort of ebb and flow it's way back. I might have a day or two where I feel fine, then I wake up anxious again. Try to notice and appreciate when you do feel okay. Those moments can help give you comfort as you move through the rough patches.

Keep a daily journal. This will help you to figure out what works when.

Keep writing it out. That's the best way to release the words, feelings, emotions, and thoughts.

When you are diagnosed with GAD, it's going to take a bit of work to figure out what might be the best for you.

My experience was immediate relief in the worst symptom and the next one popped up and it kept going from one to another until I was able to find a calm in one area for a starting balance to work with. The use of the daily journal provided a timeline for what worked best when.

You are not alone. Take a short walk outside and observe nature. You are normal, with anxiety ranging in acute and high level. Anxiety is natural, so you'll be able to get it back into a better balance.

Best wishes.

@Mid Thank you for your reply. I don't expect to never feel anxiety ever again, but my anxiety begins as soon as I wake up in the morning, and can last throughout the day. I get that anxiety is normal, and I've experienced it when it's an appropriate time to do so, but this is different. I've never been an anxious person. I have a relatively stress free life, and a strong support system, but I've been experiencing these feelings of anxiety for absolutely no reason, day in, and day out since June. Like groundhogs day. No triggers at all. Although there has been some improvement, (a month ago it was completely out of control,) I often can't see the light at the end of the tunnel. I really don't get what's happening, considering before June, I've never had this before. Especially not daily.

@Brockster I'm just curious as to whether I am where I'm expected to be at this point in my treatment. It has been 4 weeks. I've made some improvement, and manage mostly with low dosages of Klonopin spread out throughout the day. I do keep a daily journal and mediate daily as well, but the Klonopin is the only thing that seems to take the edge off. I really don't understand it, since I've never had this problem before. I'm just hoping that I'm not stuck this way. I will do whatever it takes, but more often than not, I find myself discouraged and in doubt as to whether I'll ever get back to my normal self again. It has completely taken over my life

Hi NickiJo (love your name!),

You're doing great!! There's no - one size fits all - when it comes to anxiety relief. At one month, you are just about entering the good part of the medication. It can take 6 weeks, maybe 8 weeks. I remember when I tried Zoloft, I felt only a little something at one month. So, hang in there, and keep doing what you're doing. Sounds like you are doing all the right things.

I know what you're saying though... I want to wake up one day and be completely how I used to be. Please be patient. It may not happen in one day, but you will start to see a few days of feeling great again, then maybe one bad day, then 5 more great days, then 1 bad day, etc. It's hard to be patient, but patience is your best friend right now.

Knowing the initial trigger from June might be helpful... have you and your therapist been able to figure out what happened in June? It doesn't have to be an event that happened, it could've been just a thought you had. Was it anything to do with the pandemic?

I wish you well. You're going to be fine!

@GirlimCalif

Thank you for your reply. I feel like I'm made some improvement from a month ago, but it's still very uncomfortable. I wake up like this every day, but some days are more manageable than others. I can't think of anything specifically in June that would trigger this, and can't think of anything that continues to trigger it. I just don't get it. Although I'm always afraid that I'm stuck like this and I don't seem to know why. Today is a tougher day than yesterday, and I seem to do better by nightfall. I'm not sure what to think about it because none of it makes sense to me. Everyone else seems to have triggers, where mine just feels like it's forced. I'm officially 4 weeks and 4 days into treatment, and I'm not exactly sure what I'm supposed to be experiencing at this point. I only just moved up to the full 30mg dosage of Remeron last week. I'm hoping to see more results soon, because I can certainly use some relief from all of this.

Here's a strange question: did you have an illness or a situation health-wise or stress event?

The reason I ask is because the other area I had to work on was the night time routine to ease into the night. You might have to do a morning routine to ease into the day.

Best wishes. You are not alone.

@Mid

The only thing I can think of is that my father and sister passed away in Oct and Nov of 2019, but I felt like I was processing it fine. I just remember one day in June I felt "off" and then it progressively got worse and worse until it was intense, and every single day. I try to keep a morning routine that eases me into my day, but these feelings are persistent, and only really managed by low dosages of Klonopin spread out through the day (.25mg at a time. It's rare that I need to take more than 2 or 3 doses a day.) I felt like my days were becoming more manageable, and then today it seems like it is back with a vengeance, and not much is helping. I really don't understand any of this, because it's just there all of the time. I also don't know what realistic expectations are regarding how I should be feeling after 4 weeks into treatment. There is improvement from a month ago, but it is still a struggle

PS...does anyone in this forum actually become friends and exchange numbers? I know I could certainly use someone to talk to that understands what I'm going through. I will probably make another post asking this same question

I’m starting the same medication that you are on. I was on Zoloft but didn’t help. My anxiety was set off by a heart condition but it can start from anything. I’m hoping for relief also it is very difficult every day seems like a battle.

Great job for everything you are doing to manage your anxiety. It is indeed possible that you either need to wait longer for the meds to kick in or you need a stronger dose. I’m sure this time will pass and soon your anxiety will lessen. You are doing everything right. What does your therapist say about this?

When I got hit with a flare up like 7 years ago that's how it happened. I was fine and then one day I was working on something and I started feeling kind of upset and off and the next morning I started spiraling down.

As for being where you're supposed to be, that's a tough call. Have you talked to your doc about it? Maybe they'll want to up your dosage again (and remember, you can always go back down in your dosage, or off meds altogether in the future).

NickiJo
I had to to mKe sure that it wasn’t myself who was writing these post. I am feeling the same way, in every way you are. I’ve been on lexapro for three weeks now. I’ve been told it could take 4-6 weeks maybe longer. I’m going to doctor tomorrow to just see.
When you said the mornings are the worst and then by night you are doing somewhat better. That is totally me. I knew something was going on when I was waking up with shaking, fear and just not right. Every morning is the same. I have no appetite at all. I’ve lost weight. Which worries me. I have to force myself to eat anything.
I like you, feel will it ever get better, will I feel normal again. I want to see some relief. It is ever so EXHAUSTING. I’m here for you. Talking it out helps. Listening to others stories sure helps.