Sometimes, I am so tired that I stay home for a day or two and rest and get little things done.  I've been running around and cleaning my house since Tuesday.  My plans for today were to visit my Aunt, go to the gym and stop at a produce store.  Then I ate lunch (half of the calzone that I ordered last night, which is not Keto) and I became very tired.  I decided to give myself a break and stay home.  I was happy with my decision.  Then my best friend texted, asking what I was doing for my birthday.  I told her that I was listening to my body and staying home.  She said she was available if I changed my mind.  I felt like a party pooper.  She's known me since 1992.  She should know that when I'm having a tired day, that there's really no changing my mind.  I started feeling guilty because she is not seeing her boyfriend this weekend.  She's probably lonely.  If you've been reading my posts, I am on a mission to put myself first.  Then my Aunt called from the nursing home begging me to come save her.  Years ago, I would be trying to figure out how to visit my Aunt and going out with my bestie.  I have no plans of leaving my house today.  No can do.  And lastly, my friend who I've been trying to get away from for about 3 months sent me a present and texted me happy birthday today, after I didn't thank her for her gift.  It's some stupid glass thing from China.  Probably a cat statue.  I'm not even going to open it.  I've gotten so many juvenile gifts from her or gifts that I couldn't use or didn't like.  It was mainly a one-sided friendship and I have no more energy for it.  I almost had a nervous breakdown obsessing about her and another person.  I just want peace.  Today I calculated how much it costs me to live here daily.  It's about $45.  That does not include anything but my mortgage.  So I am happy to spend time at my home and I'm pretty sure that my cat is happy too!