I'm disappointed that I couldn't do more for myself. I'm frustrated with my Aunt. She has a flip phone that she is not using correctly and I can't understand most of what she says. Sometimes I hang up on her. What's the sense?

Have you try drinking energy drink?

No but I have Gatorade at home.

Sorry you’re feeling this way GreenEyes. Yes I always do hydration when I’m not right.
Hope you feel better soon

Are you saying yes when you mean no? Doing the yes when we mean no can make us feel overwhelmed and angry and create more anxiety. Because we aren't honoring our own emotional needs, our own values, etc.

What about going to the doctor and getting your thyroid checked and some blood work done just to check out the body?

We have to take care of our own emotional wellness and physical wellness because no one else can. We women are typically trained to be givers and doers and sometimes we need to stop. So we can rest when we need to, so our minds get a rest from obligations, you matter too.

Hi, green eyes! if you can try to sleep for a bit you should. Sleep is important and I understand you have a lot going on but taking care of yourself is important

Thanks hasty! My friend doesn't have a car and asked me weeks ago if I could take her shopping today. She was really looking forward to getting out and getting things. I had just turned her down for a visit with her Mom so I said that I would take her. I cried almost the whole way to her house, a 45 minute drive. I was upset with me being so tired and not getting stuff done on my break. I hate when people get in my car and I have to put my things in the back of the car and try to clean it as I'm not a neat person. I was upset that I don't think she spends her money wisely and could probably afford a car. Thus, I had to drag my exhausted self to her house, then backtrack about 20 or 25 minutes to go to stores. I started feeling funny in Walmart. I felt like I may have diarrhea or have to throw up or both. I was also upset that my Aunt didn't take proper care of herself and is basically an invalid in a nursing home. I visit her on Sundays and bring food and drink and she's very demanding and I feel like it's a job to visit her and now she is even further away. Meanwhile, I have no clue where my 3 pairs of jeans are and have had no energy to look for them. I think the crying released toxins or something. I have had hypothyroidism since my 20s and am on top of that. My friend did serve a nice lunch. On my way home, I meant to stop for gas but my Aunt, who I found out had been taken to the ER for a UTI that I tried to address 5 times with the nursing home, called me and I got down the road and realized I screwed up. I couldn't wait to get home and lay in my bed with my cat.

Thanks autumn! I do try to take care of myself. Marian, I am drinking diet green tea.

Thanks everyone!

Autumn, I wanted to sleep but I was overtired.

GreenEyes. I know you take care of yourself. I just know sometimes I don’t know what is wrong with myself so I turn to electrolytes. Sorry if it sounded any other way.
I sincerely hope you feel better.

Marian, I will drink some Gatorade today. Thanks for the push!

Could it be allergies making u tired ?
Setting boundaries and saying no because you need to take care of your health can be difficult especially if u are a care giver by nature and like to help others. I know I have trouble saying no if someone needs help but then resentment can set in and that helps no one in the end

Hi light! Resentment is a great word for my situation. I canceled on my Aunt today and she is being great about it, which is a relief. I am in bed but I just hopped up to get some ice water with lemon as it dawned on me that I have hardly had any water on Spring Break and probably too much coffee. Marian and Peter had me thinking. I also drank some Gatorade. I've also hardly worked out at the gym since I've been off. I usually try to go every other day. I did go 10 times in April so I got my $10 reward through my Medicare Advantage plan. That almost pays my monthly fee for Planet Fitness!

I feel tired today too. Yeah the workouts leave me feeling refreshed too. But sometimes after I get ready for work, I lay on the couch and take a nap for 20 minutes or a little more. It helps to get me through. I hope you feel refreshed soon.

Hi, Green Eyes. Funny this sounds like my last journal entry. You can't rescue everyone or fix all of their problems. It sounds like you are in desperate need of selfcare. Please listen to your body and take care of YOU before taking on others problems. I am going through something similar. Sending hugs and I hope you feel better soon.

Hi OnTime and BlueSky! Thanks! The weekend is here! I am relaxing on my loveseat with a fan on me. I was starving like a maniac 2 hours ago so I had some celery with natural peanut butter. It hit the spot! I'm hoping to skip dinner. I was upset because it seems like one theme in my life has been caretaker. I always "try" to clean and organize but I'm usually on the tired side. So I get mad when I have to help others. My Aunt had her first stroke in 2004. I've been helping her ever since. She used to suck the life out of me until I sort of had a nervous breakdown because of her. Now when I say I can't get to see her until Sunday, and she says she'll be dead by then, I say "oh well". She's so manipulative which pisses me off. Now I normally don't fall prey to her antics like I used to.