Trying to predict what other people will say is a waste of energy in my world. Even the people I know well can surprise me. For people I have never and will not ever meet? ? ? You're kidding, right? The possibilities are infinite.

I do know I am typically only fooling myself when I try to hide my emotions in therapy or anywhere else. In therapy, I am also wasting resources. I am in therapy **to** deal with my emotions. When I hide my emotions in therapy, my time might be better spent watching youtube.

But that is me. . .

Gentle support while you sort your own.

You must be honest with your therapist so you can get the support you need if you keep hidden your feelings he or she can not help you. So be honest.

Hmm. The first thing I say to anyone who thinks they are 'hiding' their feelings.

There are tell-tale signs of that type of conversation, and in therapy, you are doing an office visit for your well-being, so wasting time with 'hiding' feelings means that you are not really willing to work your feelings out to a better balance.

I think they would embrace the fact that you are trying more than one thing.

what do u think about me trying to not be emotional in therapy this next therapy session november 30th 2020

There are kinder ways to hurt yourself.

Working to hide my emotions hurts me far more than it hurts anybody else. In my strictly personal case, working to hide my emotions turns me into a human time bomb, waiting to go off at the least convenient moment.

Then we get to the humiliation of looking the fool when I think my clever act fools anybody but me. The truth has about a million, kajillion ways (other than the human time bomb effect) of leaking through the cracks of my clever act.

Buttttttaaaaa. . . Different strokes for different folks. Every case is unique. Do what feels right for your own unique case.

what would my therapist say to me if i told her im might emotional in therapy on november 30th 2020

I still don't wanna guess what this woman I have never met would say, but I would say, "Welcome to the human species. Humans are hard-wired by Nature to be emotional. We make ourselves less than human when we deny our emotions."

Don't be afraid to show your natural self. She's in there somewhere.

Hope healing happens here.

Your therapist might not be able to tell you are hidding your feelings.Or perhaps she/ he could tell.
The important thing is what would you tell to yourself about hidding your feelings in therapy?
Therapy is not magic , and you get out what you put in.

I’m numb in therapy because of what happened to me as a child

Pretherapy, I was numb just about all the time because of what happened to me as a child. Therapy didn't make me numb. It only made me aware of that numbness.

It wasn't until after I opened myself to the healing mysteries that I came to realize just how much of life I was missing because of that numbness. Fast forward a few decades and there is not a doubt in my mind that the gain was worth the pain. Living fully fully rocks.

Take a risk, Laura. Dare to heal.
Therapy works if you work it and you are worth it.

im not worth it

I can’t take the risk because I’m afraid to and I’m in a abusive relationship online that a guy I met online and he told me to shut up when I was expressing myself and he also said my life isn’t that bad and I told him my boyfriend that u are not in my shoes and then he said no in his shoes are worst.

Go you! ! ! Way to vent! ! !

Keep venting. Your answers are in there.

Listening. . .

What do u think about what I just said