In a few days that being Monday Emma and I are going on a trip  to her transplant clinic.  We have to be up at 5am to get a taxi to the train station which will be the first train of the morning.  It will be dark until about  7am. We then change trains at a bigger station to get  train to hthe hospital.  Emma then has her obs done, bloods taken, ekg, c gram, chest x ray, see the nurses and wait to see the consultant.  After all that we  have to wait at pharmacy for 6 months supply of anti rejection drugs.  And then catch the trains home.

I am in a complete  nervous state, for  the past 3 days I am not sleeping well.  

At the thought of all this travelling, Emma can have an epilectic attack, asthma, choking attack, and i am going to be on my own with her.  My nerves  have completly of the scale my stomach is churning day and night.  I woke in the night annd my first thought was monday ewith my hand on my head.  I  doubt if i will sleep wwell untiil  this apppointment  is  over!!!!!!!!!!!!!