Its the meds and just all of us sitting quitely thinking of what to do now. Stop IT!
We are all dealing with this and if i have to so do you :-) It will get better. You will find the right meds to help. Just give it time. Day by day.

i'll try thanks

What else are you doing besides relying on meds to feel better ?

i try to keep myself busy

Thoughts like that can be a severe side effect of the medication that you're taking. They're meant to alleviate that, not allow it to continue, spark it, or make it worse. Call your doctor ASAP, and give them the details of how you're feeling so that they can try alternate means of treatment.

trust me if your trying to go off a med do so under docs direction, I have had MAJOR with drawls off some of mine when I have just up and stoppe them. other other is just find something to keep you occupied when your places where you will have anxiety (know it wasn;t the best for me, but I would chain smoke cigars when in those situations, wouldn't recommend that ) - MEH

What med's are you on?? im on diazepam for my anxiety, i take one as and when needed, i used to have anxiety attacks reaslly bad like for weeks on end one after the other after the other and so on, turns out it was the anti depressants dr put me on for the anxiety..... you need to get help nopw, book an emergeancy appointment, suicidal thaughts can turn so quickly, 1 min your having them next your trying to harm yourself, good luck hun xx

when we hit walls like you are right now, it's time for us to walk around them, drop the crap that isn't working, and build lives worth living.

you hang in there. life is worth living and you can have a great life if you use your imagination, your talents, and the sound advice of good people.

don't go by feelings. feelings can lie. you just stand for something good and the world will love you for it. (at least good people will.)

Okay kiddo, your on the wrong meds. I read you're only 19 and antidepresants have to be really monitered to you young folk. Call your doc, have him change them today if possible. One of the signs that parents of teens and youngens have to watch for is suicidal thoughts. I know a few young people who take Lexipro and feel so much better without the side effect you are having. This med is NOT the one for you. I know I'm not a doctor, but I do know a few things. Please call your doc, he or she will know what to do. If not, get another doc who's read his manual. These are just feelings, just feelings.....

so could meds really do this to you

Yes. Absolutely.

It irritates me to no end when Pdocs put teenagers on ADs and don't watch them like hawks!
The medications are notorious for striking suicidal ideas in people 24 and under - even if they've NEVER been suicidal before. It's a mixture of the meds, and hormones.

so yeah... you're definitely receiving the wrong treatment...but you have to bring this to your doctor's attention so that it can be fixed.

i'm on 0.5 clonozepam and 50 zoloft does any of these induce these feelings

Yes. For your age group they both can, but its probably the Zoloft. Are you also diagnosed with depression, or just anxiety?

Just anxiety