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Suddenly anxious all over again

Miss.Chaplin
Miss.Chaplin

You know when you have an unexpected bad experience (possibly a crime), and it's so shocking your mind blocks it out?


This is exactly what my mind has done.  A few months ago sort of a trauma surfaced in my mind, and it was when I was 12 having private tuition. My teacher was teaching in another teacher's house and the place was cluttered with stuff out ready to be used. I was struggling to write to the end of the pages in my exercise book (had a habit of writing to the middle and then beginning a new line), so she threatened to cut my book in half. Then, she went to the window and picked up a saw and with a smile on her face, held it about 8 inches away from my right hand. I began feeling terrified and just froze while she ignored how I was reacting/appearing.


Now that this awful memory has hit me, I'm thinking to make a police report. It won't leave my head.


How many kids whether 5 yrs old or 13 yrs old, would find it funny having a huge saw shoved near to one of their hands? Surely not many

arfie
arfie
I'd worry about anybody, child or adult, who would enjoy such a memory.

I don't know how long ago you were 12, but I'm not sure what the police could do, even if that was last month. Still. . . Offering stabilizing support while you process, whatever way you take the processing.
Miss.Chaplin
Miss.Chaplin
Thanks for the comment. My therapist confused and annoyed me by saying "well you are special needs so didn't perceive this as a joke" Maybe its time to find a new therapist.
I'll see how I go but if this keeps bothering me I'll have to go to police, simply so I can get it off my chest (kind of). Bottling up is awful
invisablefriend
invisablefriend
i would file a Police Report and also report the incident to your states education professional license bar.
Sillywabbit4u
Sillywabbit4u
Sounds like PTSD vs anxiety. But filing a police report might not help either depending on the statute of limitations in the state you are in.

I’m in agreeance, if a therapist makes fun of you in a negative way, I would start looking for a new one.
Miss.Chaplin
Miss.Chaplin
Thank you for the replies.
Miss.Chaplin
Miss.Chaplin
My teacher I think viewed the whole thing with the saw as a joke, and she was smiling and whispering "I'm going to cut your book in half".... but from my perspective, I was terrified and suddenly had this huge saw close to my body. Whether a joke or intending to cause harm, the child isn't going to find this a normal situation
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