I'm here in this group actually for that reason.. very similar to yours.. anxiety has crippled my living and makes afraid to do anything.. Ive actually had a really bad anxiety attacks that lead to panic attacks here and there it's the scariest ever and made me not wanna go anywhere.. you're not alone with what you're going through

Hi you two, yes you're definitely not alone. Truth is you probably don't want to look crazy or weird in front of other people. Yay? Nay?
I've written a diary on MDJunction. I don't think you have to subscribe to see it but please check it out and let me know if you can relate

https://www.mdjunction.com/diary/avoidance-behavior/why-i-get-stuck-and-what-ive-realized-about-thinking

Sorry to hear you are feeling this way, I would suggest arranging a meeting at your school, some times they will allow you to go in for just a hour a day and slowly build it up over time, or looking into some home schooling might need to be a temparily option. Or maybe you could remain within a certain class all day with a trusted teacher and some One collects you work from your other classes. I would also speak to your gp and see if they can offer you any support or medication to help with your anxiety. I hope you are feeling better soon. Please talk to your family and friends also and make them aware of how you feel, maybe invite a friend round for a hour and two (Or try go to your friends house or for little walks with some One you trust) i would suggest some social interaction if you can manage that so you don't become isolated and alone with your anxiety xxxx

I'm gonna take a look thank you so much for offering your time really it helps to know people care.. it means a lot to me.. I just wish I knew I was gonna be okay.. I mean the attacks are absolutely scary and I've made it through every time so I'm starting to realize what the heck is the point in getting worked up at things then panicking.. it passes.. but scary.. I'm scared to go anywhere or do stuff because Im afraid to have a panic/anxiety attack that I can't control and then it's like idk what could happen! but in the back of my mind I know I'm gonna be fine and feel like I can do stuff but still afraid to leave my comfort zone.. ugh so frustrating back and forth I'm sorry it sounds crazy.. see I have had the whole intense fearful anxiety situation in real actual situations that call for it..not a problem.. nowadays its the smallest thing that gives me anxiety because I'm always watching myself so that bad feeling doesn't come back when in reality I know that I don't really have anything to stress about except for stressing about the next possible attack.. one day in 2016 I had a real stressful situation with work and other things that lead me to a really bad anxiety attack I couldn't breath or anything then it turned into panic and it was the worst.. scared me to death I didn't know how to react to it.. I didn't leave my house for 3 months and I also didn't talk about it or tell anyone so I went through it alone and didn't know how to deal with it.. but I eventually started leaving my house slowly taking steps getting better not going to far but still letting myself have fun.. eventually I got a good job got back to fishing everything was good and then a couple months ago I had another terrible attack that has set me back so freaking far made me feel like there is no way out like I am back to square one and it's been making see nothing but negative and making me watch my every move to avoid a attack and it's like I let the non stressful things get to me and I convince myself I'm stressed and it happens.. but I will say educating myself on anxiety/panic has eased it somewhat and I'm eating better because of that

KeepinUp I read your diary and I can relate to it a little bit.
I have a panic disorder but I often feel like what you explained in your diary.
I avoid things too even though I want to be there but anxiety is holding me back.
Thank you for your help!

THATmom Thank you for your reply!
I am going to talk to my teacher this friday about my anxiety and how I still can proceed school even though Im absent most of the time.

I told my parents and a couple of close friends whats going on and they understand and support me.

Again thank you for your reply. I am going to follow your advice and try if it helps to ease my anxiety.

BJAR I struggle with leaving my comfort zone too. Sometimes It's the best thing to do even though you feel afraid and on the verge of a panic attack.
Eventually your body will know your not in danger and your panick attack wil go away.

I think panic attacks are the worst and its hard to get trough them. Right now it's so bad I can't even leave my house.

Try to keep doing the things you want to do. When you keep avoiding things you will get more and more afraid and the more afraid you are the harder it will be to go somewhere or do the things you love.

Senmen you nailed it everything you just said.. pushing to get out of my comfort zone and realizing I'm okay.. that's exactly what I did the first time around.. I started to come out of my shell and live again.. eventually I was okay.. everything was pretty much back to normal.. I had everything just about back on track and boom another crazy attack hit me out of nowhere February 15 and was so bad.. I completely lost all hope.. since then I've drilling myself there is no way out.. thinking negative.. I haven't left my house again since then.. i barely leave my room.. I had trouble eating but that kinda has gotten better honestly.. thank god.. I've just felt so trapped and it's the same thing every day.. worrying about an attack believing one is gonna happen.. sometimes I feel I disconnect but I realize real.. sometimes I think about the past when I was didn't have any of this and the past good times barely feel like it happened because the state of mind is all I know

Just tired of watching my back being on edge.. I want out the mess learn how to manage it better and live.. I just dont get how it can get so rough when I really have quite a bit to be thankful for and not stress about.. I'm 29 im healthy physically I have no kids no gf no wife I have a great family who is always there.. I have a roof over my head food to eat a car a good job waiting for me to come back.. Its just confusing and i am ashamed I let this attack and anxiety crap beat me up so much that I'm afraid of almost anything for no reason

BJAR I can relate so much to you. Thank you for replying and telling me your story.

Even the happiest person alive could suffer from panic attacks and anxiety. It is Just that we overthink so much we become anxious before something bad ever happened. And when the moment comes we get a panick attack because we think we are in danger. It is al in our heads and having a panick attack is not dangerous at all. It just feels like it.

I was told to never feel ashamed for my anxiety. You didn't choose to live with anxiety right? Fear is an emotion and you do not have to be ashamed of how you feel.

I read on your page that you went oustide to take a walk for the first time since your panic attack. Good job! How did it feel?

My advice to you is what helped me the most, just try to take things one day at a time. Cliche' I know, but it really does help. At least for me, most of my negative thoughts were the what ifs and what could be instead of just dealing with what was right in front of me. And for those days that you are too scared to go to school, remember this one scripture that helped me. Isaiah 41:10 "Do not be afraid, for I am with you. Do not be anxious for I am your God. I will fortify you, yes I will help you. I will really hold on to you with my right hand of righteousness." I remember this and remember that I'm not alone. I have someone backing me and helping me whenever I need it, and so do you.

I was in the same situation and got underweight as result. Later they said i had psychosis. Let me tell you the only two things you can do now. 1. Go to mental hospital and let your parents take you there but it'll be expensive. Is what happened to me.
2. Or you can figure out how long you have to go to this school. If its just one more year as how it was in my case.. you can just sit it out. Just think like this: everyone doesnt like me, i have no friends and the government is trying to kill me --> so f*ck them all! You will SIT OUT in this school with anxiety, while keeping a menacing face and hide from everyone you know in school so they wont bully you or get you in a social interaction. Just stay away from them all and only go to the lessons to get the grades which the government and your parents force you to get! Actually, this isn't anti social behavior. It is instinctual behavior! Humans are predators and prey like every other animals. It is only natural that people get anxiety when slaving away their life to become a slave to money. You can either fight the government and get guns or you do it like me: I will sit here, and watch the world turn. ;)

All what the others say is stupid. It is anxiety or psychosis what you have! You cant undo these things simply by working out or training. Also the optimistic idea to get friends doesnt work. Anxiety is related to places! Nothing can undo the anxiety in that place because theres a reason for it to be there... you will be pessimistic and you just have to go to another school with different pupils and teachers. Im sure you dont like the place because of social interaction and or some people. Just sit it out and tell your parents about anxiety.

Senmen I'm glad you can relate and understand where I'm coming from it does help to know we aren't alone at and share stories.. I would never hold back and let it build I want people to hear and let's move forward together.. me you everyone.. you're sure correct on panic not being dangerous.. I've educated myself on the panic/anxiety attack and I'm getting myself to grasp what I read.. which is panic is not dangerous won't kill and lasts for 10 mins or so.. just about everything I read says you won't die which helps lol it happens then passes.. and that's what I'm trying to gain confidence on cause it was the worst feeling ever!!!!! I cant tell how right you are about overthinking which I ALWAYS do ugh! And that I over think so much and become so anxious about nothing before danger is even there and the time comes and boom! I start to panic I feel trapped theres danger when theres not it's all in my head is definitely me lol you said it so well.. my cousin who has been with me every step of the way has said my main problem is I over think wayyyyy too much and i do it to myself.. I had that one attack two months ago and now I'm always watching waiting for another so I always watch what I do and avoid things.. everything lol I need to get in my head with some love and positivity and say I can! My cousin says don't think just do! And I did that this morning as I laid in bed drilling myself theres no way out I'm screwed.. well I got my butt up said screen this threw on some joggers and hoodie and went walking my town alllll morning.. one hour and a half.. and thank you for asking about it it was amazing.. the sun shining bright smelling flowers grass air birds chirping.. it was very weird at first because I haven't been out of my house in 2 months.. almost forgot what is like when i play the same sad song in my head for months.. but it was the best and I'm ready to do it again next morning.. or heck later this evening! And never be ashamed.. I agree.. I think that makes it worse.. emotions feelings need to be heard expressed and be comfortable with that

Thank you al so much for replying! It means a lot to me.

MzDonald430 Thank you for your advice I will try to follow it :)

AT7 I definitely have a low self esteem and iam afraid of being judged bij others. Rejection and inferiority are also a part of my anxiety. It is nice to know the source of my anxiety so i can do something about it. Thankyou again for your explanations and advice. i will try to follow it!

ShepherdGen I already switched schools and I actually like the classes and the people in the school im in now. I have two more years to go. I don't know why I feel so anxious in school when there really is nothing to be anxious about.

BJAR so glad to hear that your walk outside was great! Try to do it more often as it makes you happy :)