in my personal herstory of lifelong anxiety, the link between my anxiety and the debilitating levels of IBS i came of age with was intense enough that my acceptance of morning anxiety fit quite smoothly with my acceptance of my morning bowel movement. my first choice would be to do away with both morning rituals, but the powers that be forgot to ask my opinion again. i gotta do what i gotta do. fighting the facts only makes ^it^ more work than ^it^ has to be.

morning anxiety remains a part of my morning rituals, but effective anxiety management tools help to keep it from ruining every day.

gentle support while you find your own way through, sarah.

Thanks Arfie
But it’s like I’m waiting for something to happen.
I even went out and walked. Got outside. Doing things that keep busy. But the feeling stays with me.
And I have another one.
This is bizarre. And hard to explain.
I feel like if I’m accomplishing things then I’ll get bad news. Like doing good will making something bad happen.
Don’t know if anyone knows what I mean.

in my own case files, the pros call this, "hyper-vigilance," among other things. they tell me vigilance is a natural part of normal anxiety and it be the "hyper" which graduates normal anxiety to a disorder. at least, i think that is what they are telling me. psychiatry is not the most consistent dialect on the planet.

but that is me and every case is unique. . .

Everybody has their own unique little quirks with anxiety, but the basic symptoms are always the same. My cousin perceived a black doggie following her. I perceived a black cloud hanging over me. Thank goodness it has disappeared. The morning anxiety is worse because cortisol is released with more abundance than necessary to wake us up. My own trick is not really a trick to help myself, I just accept it, I don’t fight it or lament about it. Some days used to be worse than others, but since I no longer worry about it, I barely notice it anymore.

Sarah I can relate to not wanting to get out of bed due to not wanting to face the day. I’ve been sleeping later than normal because of it. Do you have a job? Is there anything you enjoy in your day? Or does the anxiety ruin everything for you?y own anxiety seems to permeate into social situations and spoils them for me. Keep posting here to sort out your thoughts.