I am constantly only around my kids. My bipolar is never stable. My agoraphia is crazy. I anyone live in San Antonio it be awesome just to have a friend to go on walks with. I am tired of sitting around letting my back get worse and my anxiety control me to where I never leave the house. Having four kids is hard and doing it alone is harder, but they start school soon. I just paused for a while and not sure what else to write I am just tired of this and want to try fighting back. All morning i was just gagging like I wanted to throw up just thinking of going somewhere public. I don't understand still why when I used to be so out going and even wild at a time. I don't know really all I have is friendly advise from here and I feel bad for trying to find someone to talk about random shit with in person. I am already stuck in the digital world.
Anyone here had seratonin syndrome that could send me a message?
I fear being vulnerable and looking weakthat these days it has made it harder for me to be open, and I am more anti-social because I feel anxious around others, though I crave support.A trigger for me is my impeding surgery. It scares the hell out of me thinking about it... and just writing that out is making my chest feel tight. I never wanted to admit that the source of my anxiety lately is...