I know because i have bad anxiety and OCD that it makes forgetting things harder and makes me obsess over things more. I just hate it soo much. I cant live like this

Therapy and/or medication can help a lot with OCD, and intrusive thoughts, etc. I know before you were looking into therapy and medication, how has that worked out so far?

Writing it out is the best way to release all those words going through your mind.

Forgive yourself. You learned from those experiences.

In my own case, repressing the memories I can't forgive cause the anxiety and OCD, not the other way around.

Self-forgiveness and making amends was/is my ticket out of that vicious loop. The further I get with this practice, the more I find that, for the most part, I am only forgiving myself for doing the best I can with a bad situation. In the cases where I believe I have hurt someone else with my misbegotten efforts, making amends goes a long way toward easing the guilt and helping myself understand how to do ^it^ better the next time.

My memory is just doing its job when it won't let me forget. I actually damaged my memory in the effort to forget. Trying too hard to forget is kinda like scratching a computer's hard drive to scrub porn off of the internet.

Im just soo upset, i was getting so much better then something on twitter triggered me and brought up a bunch of suppressed memories. Things that took me years to try and forget. I get rushes of anxiety and my heart starts beating really fast whenever i think abt it. Like i know I’m not that person anymore. I cant change what i did. Its time to forgive and forget I feel like I’m keeping a secret. I know that I’m doing this to myself and the more i think abt it the more it bothers me

Try therapy. You may need medication also. A good therapist can guide you so you
can help yourself.

I credit the family mantra, "Forgive and Forget" for my Trauma Induced Amnesia. I really believed I had forgotten until the memories kept rushing back like a tsunami from time to time, totally crippling me in their flood.

Much psychotherapy later, I came to realize I had been too busy forgetting to get to the forgiving. Who needs to forgive what they can forget? Turns out, forgiving is much harder work than forgetting.

But that is me and every case is unique. . .

Keep venting, Maree. Your own answers are in there.

Listening. . .

Can you make some kind of amends? You might not be able to find the people you hurt--but can you make it up some how? For me, that's been the best way to make up for stupid things I've done.

We are the hardest on our own selves. You have to forgive yourself. No matter what happened - you deserve to not be pulled under - no matter what you did. It is ok. It is your past - and you've given it enough of your space. Tomorrow is a new day. Look forward and ahead -

Margee98 something that I have been trying with my therapist is Eye movement desensitization and reprocessing (EMDR for short). It’s reconnecting the person in a safe and measured way to the images, self-thoughts, emotions, and body sensations associated with any trauma (it doesn’t necessarily have to be trauma) its allowing the natural healing powers of the brain to help with the trauma or negative feeling. I hope I explained it well enough to understand.