I am new to this page or any online support group for that matter so bare with me. I have been dealing with Generalized Anxiety Disorder for most of my life now. I am 33 yrs old. I won't go into detail of my life worth it experience but rather I wanted to bounce some things off you guys. For the past 6+ years my anxiety had been ner non-existent. I had gotten to where I could recognize the ques and typically calm down. Even if I did slip up and have a minor attack or a night of ruminating I could shake it off the next morning and not dwell on it . Life was great. I went in for a routine Doc visit and just casually told him I had felt slightly more anxious the last few weeks than I was used to. Didn't think much about why or what was causing it. Just reported it. He said it sounds like the medicine is starting not to work like it has been and we might need a change. No alarm went off in my head about a change I just went with the logic and made the change....as my luck would have it shortly after changing SSRIs I got a lump on my left pec. All of my anxiety is a result of my own health and how I feel. You can imagine the fear and anxiety that began to take over during getting this "lump" diagnosed. Turns out it is a benign tumor and worse case they will remove it. Still makes me anxious but no huge deal. The worry eventually got the best of me one night. Here we go full panic attack! But I thought I managed it quite well. Took my benzos got to sleep eventually, had come to peace with my reason for having it, I should be good the next day no sweat. That most certainly didn't happen. I was consumed by "how am I feeling" I was so stuck in my head that I could not distract myself. It's spiraled a out of control to the point that it is now 2 1/2 weeks since that first attack and i am still a prisoner of my own fear. I quickly got with the doctor and got off the new SSRI with intentions of returning to my previous. There was a period of a week that i had to quit cold Turkey AND not have any other SSRI to make sure it was cleared. I have now been back on my original SSRI (Prozac) for about 6 days. Every day feels like anxiety overload and I can not see a way of breaking free from this torture. Have any of you had anxiety that crippled you but your doctor keeps telling you "once the medicine gets to full effect in your body (2+WEEKS!!) you will level back out and be fine." Why am I having such a hard time believing in a medicine to that had me stable for so long? I keep having thoughts that I have gotten so consumed by fear that this medicine can not possibly fix it now. I rambled on a lot there guys and for those of you who read this whole thing and respond will be like family to me. I am in the darkness and I need help from others who can understand.
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