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Anxiety is a physical condition marked by intense and persistent feelings of distress, fear, angst or dread. General anxiety caused by routine day-to-day stresses usually passes quickly and is experienced by almost everyone at one time or another. However, such feelings that linger over time and are very difficult to cope with, and which lack a clear cause, may indicate...
5+ years since i buried my son and took on the job of raising his 3 children, my new life still feels surreal. my 70 year old rags still feel out of place among the age appropriate parents i have to mix with for the sake of my 3 orphans. i still miss my rivers with the longing of a migrant lost in a strange land. my current reality still feels like nothing more than that confusing time between naps. still, the current reality has stabilized into some sweet dreams. still allot of rough moments, but there is peace in the neighborhood. it feels like time to relax and trust the new realities. TRUST! ! ! aw, c'mon! ! ! give me an easy job, would ya! ! ! i wish ya wouldn't make me work so hard! ! ! just wishing. . . works in progress.
today's read from the daily meditation reader, "courage to change" is resonating loud enough to feel worthy of reinforcing with a sharing.
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confusion can be a gift from god. looking back on instances when i felt desperately in need of an immediate solution, i can see that often, i wasn't ready to act. when i became fully ready, the information i needed was there for the taking.
when i know too much about my options before the time is right to exercise those options, i tend to use the information only to drive myself crazier. that's why today, when i am feeling confused, i try to consider it grace. it may not be time to act.
i think that dealing with confusion can be like cooking. if the bread isn't done, i don't take it out of the oven and insist it is time to eat. i let it finish baking. if a clear solution to a problem hasn't shown itself yet, i can trust that it will appear when the time is right.
today's reminder
i will thank my higer power for whatever i experience today, even if i feel troubled or confused. i know that every experience can offer me a gift. all i have to do is be willing to look at my situation in the light of gratitude.
"everything has its wonders, even darkness and silence, and i learn, whatever state i may be in, therein to be content." ~helen keller
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for what it's worth
helen keller lived a spectacular life, despite being blind, deaf and dumb. her teacher, anne sullivan, is one of my heroes. her contribution to schools for the blind and deaf are epic to this day. personally, i hail her for her triumph over her dismal childhood. i salute you, my leige.
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Hey All...I hope that you have a lovely, peaceful beginning of your weekI have a bunch of chores that need doing but may put them off til tomorrow and just hang out with my landlord/roomie todayWhat about you?...Anything special going on?Have a great day and take good care of you!!..Xo
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I haven't written in my diary on my computer since May because I thought that my computer was dying. I got away from writing but my computer is hanging in there. I think that I will start writing in it again. It's so therapeutic.
I liken it a bit to being still, learning to get comfortable sitting in discomfort. Take in the info, process, rinse, repeat, and keep doing that, until.
I remember years ago traveling to a country in the Middle East by myself. I was so open to the experience but feeling challenged by trying to maintain some control and make sense out of things. At one point I asked someone who was coordinating transport for me from one part of the country to another, what time I’d be picked up. It left me feeling so out of control, not having those details or getting a straight answer when I felt I needed it. He said in the most sincere, serene voice, “Don’t worry. All will be revealed.” Basically, relax, the confusion will get sorted out. When it’s time you’ll know. He was right, haha!
this morning finds me wondering if i can project this analogy into my worries about the future. just wondering. . . it's a meditation. deciding answers misses the point. chew chew.
I hope will yield fruit. Does your mind, when waking up in the morning undermine or troubling you with a kind of voraciousness and craziness?
Anyways - it's good to be reminded that there will be something positive to come of it! :)
if you want to change the world, change the way you look at it. ~gandhi
my monkey mind is seeking omniscient perfection again. what's in you monkey mind?
pass the popcorn. . .