My anxiety levels have been through the roof in recent weeks. This week I even have a literal component to the roof I have been going through. Roofing work on the Brood House with prayers that the Brood House and the Honey Barn will look like a matched set by the end of the rennovation. Yesterday morning, after the roofing crew postponed their work on account of weather, I declared myself to be in full psychotic episode and dropped everything to ply therapy tools. I'll spare you --and my arthritic fingers-- those gory details.
The detail which counts here is that I slept outside by my fire pit last night and woke feeling far more stable this morning. Not *over ^it^* but far more stable. Progress over perfection. . . Small steps. . . Platitude. . . Platitude. . .
As I eased my way into the morning, it occurred to me that it was the first time in a long time that I have slept without the television murmuring me to sleep. Hm-m-m-m. . . A sign that I need to take a media fast? ? ? How intense a media fast should I take?
I began taking media fasts in the 70's when "media" was newspapers, magazines, radio and television. Most of the internet fits neatly into that file drawer, but phone books and mailboxes don't. Sigh. . . Just when I have all the answers, The Cosmos go and change the questions. Why can't we pick one and stick to ^it^?
I think I’m having a panic attack attack right now. I’m going to try to calm down. I know what’s my biggest trigger and I should just walk away from it. Why can’t I just do that. I get put in this situation and I didn’t even want it. I should of never let it get this far. but how do you turn your back on family. Especially when that person never did anything wrong to you. It’s not...
I did a full on clean of my work and rest spaces today. It was surprising how much of a difference it made!What people don’t realize is that your environment can affect you emotionally. For me, my environment didn’t feel like “my” environment for a long time, and I subconsciously felt some anxiety in my workspace, which made me less productive. Similarly, having strewn, messy, and useless...