Anxiety Support Group
Anxiety is a physical condition marked by intense and persistent feelings of distress, fear, angst or dread. General anxiety caused by routine day-to-day stresses usually passes quickly and is experienced by almost everyone at one time or another. However, such feelings that linger over time and are very difficult to cope with, and which lack a clear cause, may indicate...
So I'm a 24 (F) I've been working since high school doing mostly customer service work , some retail, and office jobs.
Last year in October I got a job at a dental office doing an office related job. It was Monday-Friday but it was very stressful. It involved alot of catch up because they hadn't had a full time person doing the job for months. Eventually I reached my breaking point, I was so stressed out I literally secretly packed all my stuff up and left. I told my boss it was a family emergency and then never came back. I finally emailed my boss the next day I wasnt ever coming back to personal reasons. I was so embarrassed I didn't tell my husband for a few weeks. I felt like such a lover.
I had some other jobs that didn't work out after that because I literally would panic so bad during the 1st day or sometimes just wouldn't show up at all. I know its so unprofessional. But my anixety reached extremely high levels about working.
I just started a new job at a company that has been my dream to work out. It has to do with what I'm going back to school for currently. But I can barely concentrate in the training, the job is completely out of my realm of what I'm used to and I'm already feeling like I have no idea what to do. I've never been this lost in a job ever before.
I'm just ready to tell them the truth and that this just isn't a good fit for me. It is another customer support related job and I think thats some of my issue I've developed such a fear of jobs like that.
I'm thinking of just doing freelance work, which i have been doing already some. Because right now I don't think I can handle normal 9-5 work. I just keep messing up and end up leaving jobs. I feel so guilty though because my husband and family will be so disappointed. But I'm really having it rough. On top of that I'm pregnant with my first kid and my emotions are all over the place. I dont know if itd normal or its something I need to tell my DR and see about possible medication. I just know my mental state right now isn't good. I'm dealing with so much anxiety about work and dealing with intrusive thoughts. I have random almost suicidial thoughts and it scares me. On one hand I feel like I'm overacting and just being a brat. But its how I feel and I know its bad to consider quitting another job but I can't keep going through this. I need to feel clarity and not feel so horrible about myself. I need an stable income though because I have debt to pay off so I know if I quit I have such little time to find freelance work.
Has anyone else ever been in a similar situation? How did you get out of it? I have been in and out of therapy before but I am not seeing a therapist now. I just haven't found one 100% to connect and will be honest with.
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I haven't written in my diary on my computer since May because I thought that my computer was dying. I got away from writing but my computer is hanging in there. I think that I will start writing in it again. It's so therapeutic.
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Years ago, I won a mirrored armoire from my job. It's in my bedroom but I rarely stand in front of it. Yesterday, I had to have a dexascan done so I had to change into a gown. There was a full length mirror in the changing room. I'm aware that I gained 5 to 7 pounds over the last year from cheating on Keto but I didn't know what it looked like. It was a reality check.
I agree with all of the above comments. There is nothing wrong with you as a person, but something that happens when you get a new job. If you're already feeling pressured (by yourself and family) that can cause your anxiety to skyrocket. Adjusting to a new job takes a lot of time and patience.
Anxiety and depression can both cause problems with concentration. I think it's important that you let your doctor know,
I have anxiety and ADHD and the combination wreaks havoc on my concentration. It might make sense to start with your PCP to talk about symptoms and see where to go from there. Whatever happens you are OK. I agree that talking to your husband is important since you are afraid of what he might think. Good Luck.
Do the job. You're doing it. Stop thinking over and just do the job, and then relax and enjoy the moment.
Pregnancy is an adventure all within itself!
Write it out in a private journal!
I think we have matching resumes. My work has been engineering and construction, but the job hopping, et al, could be straight off my early resume. I, too, thought contract work would be a better fit for me, but my mental health issues showed up there, too. They seem to follow me wherever I go. Seems like wherever I go, there I am.
WHERE'S MY PERFECT LIFE!?!?!?!?!?
My ticket out was and remains psychotherapy peer support. As valuable as my pros have been in my recovery, it is my peer supporters who are in the trenches with me with all the inside understandings and insights on what I am going through. The very first of my effective therapists encouraged me to think of pros (starting with himself) as reference books that never leave the library. The goal is to get them back on the shelf as quickly as possible. This doctor was a staunch believer in peer support.
DS is one of the nodes on my peer support network. I suggest you start venting and sorting the particulars of your career development here before you let yourself take any action, whatsoever, at your workplace. In my own recovery, that one step has made more diffs in my career and personal development than anything else I have tried. I am still often amazed at how much diff the venting and sorting can make. Just knowing I am not alone in these struggles is priceless, in itself.
Welcome aboard. I hope DS serves you as well as it has served me.
You are not alone. Listening. . .
1. Time You're in training. Go the extra mile. Take the materials home, spend some added time to understand it. I have a family member working for me, who needs the income so I've been patient with her. She says she's having a hard time with Microsoft Office, I mentioned taking a course or seeing a Youtube video. A lot of things are simply harder than people think.
I handled a religious service on integrating live and Zoom and people said I did well. But it took a lot of time, hard work, and patience.
2. Comparison So don't think the people who will do well are smarter than you, many will take the time to do well. My wife worked 30 years at a medical facility. Many said she just had a talent for organization and doctors said things went well when she was handling them. But while her job started at 8, she would come in 7:15, check the schedule, issues, anticipate problems, start sending emails, reviewing things, and was pretty organized when the day actually started. If she came in the assigned time, she may have been confronting multiple problems. So work harder than your competition, and don't worry about the money.
3. Read books or materials about the area. Again go all in. Evenson has some good books on customer service. It's not easy, and I'm sure there are a number of issues, guidelines, and others items. Perhaps create your own notebook, review the materials each day, try to shift your anxiety, self-doubt, and worry, to incentives to work hard to do the job.