I hope it gives you some comfort to know you are not alone. I’ve also been caught off guard by how my previously manageable anxious mind has now suddenly become really overwhelming. Last week I was fine, but last few days left me falling asleep to YouTube videos of assisted suicide. The fear of getting sick and dying alone away from family and living the next year of my life in this isolated world without a hug, on top of job loss and having to move out of my apartment, crushed me these past few days.

I send you big heart hugs. May we both have the courage to not give up on ourselves, even when our minds are running amok! It will pass.

I see from your profile you are only young so it is a very confusing time for you. The teenage years can be a challenge as you go through so many changes and now this damn virus. So yeah, I get what you’re saying and ocd is very challenging. Take it from an old duck though, this too shall pass. Everything does. Try to keep your eyes on the horizon and work towards having some skills to take into the next phase of your life. Good luck hon.

Lirpy I sent you a hug to welcome you to DS. Life is hard for some of us but we can get through it together..stay strong.

Hello Lily. Welcome to DS. Sorry for what brings you here, but glad you are here.

So far as I can tell, I got past my suicidal ideation, with a great deal of therapy work, back in the 70's, but the homicidal ideation still worries me, ALLOT. My suicidal ideation had masked a great deal of suppressed and well-justified rage. Alas, rage is a hard force to manage and random targets innocent victims in its blindness. I have invested quite allot of additional therapy work on learning how to identify, challenge and manage my anger, but it remains an on-going problem. Works still in progress after all these years. Peer support from fellow ragers and even a few introverts remain my most important anger management tool. Trust is an essential ingredient in healing.

I hope this post is the beginning of your own therapy support network. Healing happens. Hope it happens to you. Welcome aboard. Hope you find stabilizing companionship here.

P.S. A silver lining in that therapy cloud is that my healing needs have introduced me to some genuinely amazing and courageous people I never would have met any other way.

You need to call a help line. If you feel like “hurting other people” (like you said) that is a big problem that needs solved ASAP.

Hello,
I’m so sorry you are having a rough time. Please stay strong. We are here for you. I hope you will find comfort by being here in the forum. When I was going through deep sadness in my life, I turned to a forum and expressed my feelings. I found relief and encouragement after I posted. I hope you will feel better as well.

Praying for you for peace and you will get through this difficulty. Keep sharing it will help you not to feel alone and less lonely. Stay safe.

Hello luggage

I'm sorry how you feel but please promise me you will not hurt your self , you must talk to someone about how you feel you will never be alone on DS you will make friends join in all the comments hopefully that will help you keep your mind occupied .
Look after your self and take care .