i have yet to change old habits or establish social networks at the drop of a declaration, but being entirely ready to do so is a solid step in that direction.

steadying support while you find your way, good mother.

Maybe let your sister in a bit more. The one your closest to. She could be a big support to you. Just take baby steps. When I had no one, my therapist was
A very important support system to me. There was at least on person to tell all my troubles to. And get advice on handling my family and life.

I will be talking to therapist tomorrow.
I’m just tired and actually glad I didn’t have therapy today because I don’t even feel like talking.

There are a lot of folks who have no one to share with. I’m one of them too Marian. I have no one to really talk to as far as a relative or friend. But I do have myself. And I’m definitely learning how to be my own best friend. Not easy. But in the big picture of things, I’m really the only one who can get me through this. It’s one day at a time, staying focused as best I can on my preferred method of recovery. If I let myself get consumed with the storm of anxiety, it throws me here and there and takes over my focus, making me lose sight of my path.

I actually know how you feel. I am in the same boat with you. I call my constantly upset stomach my "sour stomach". My therapist has suggested Baby Steps. Work on learning to cope with one person at a time. I do meditation and try to visualize a positive outcome. Be Kind to Yourself and Learn to Love Yourself then you are better equipped to Love Others. I'm at stage one, I'm still working on trying to love myself. We know all of our mistakes and flaws, so this can take a while. One Day at a Time!

I feel the exact same way right now Marian. But you are much stronger than you realize. Hang in there.

Thank you all. I am hanging in there. What else can I do?
As I previously said, I am just tired. TIred of trying to help myself.
Tired of the way I feel. I try so hard to be a good person, I want nothing but to feel better. I am not doing a woah is me. I know so many people have it worse.
And certainly have things that are so much worse. As I said, I am just tired right now.

Hang in there Marian!

It if course not a "woa is me". Are you able to speak to a therapist? It can really help.
Hugs.

Yes I do speak with a therapist weekly. I’ll speak with her tomorrow actually. As I mentioned earlier, glad it wasn’t today because I actually don’t even feel like talking.