Anxiety Support Group
Anxiety is a physical condition marked by intense and persistent feelings of distress, fear, angst or dread. General anxiety caused by routine day-to-day stresses usually passes quickly and is experienced by almost everyone at one time or another. However, such feelings that linger over time and are very difficult to cope with, and which lack a clear cause, may indicate...
I'm finding now, as I have in the past, that after a period of intense anxiety I'm now in this place of hypervigilance where I'm sort of constantly monitoring myself for thoughts or feelings of anxiousness. It's sort of a feeling of waiting to be anxious, if that makes sense. It's frustrating, because it tends to become a self-fullfilling prophecy. Constantly scanning myself to see if I'm anxious creates anxiety.
I recognize what I'm doing, and I try to get out of my mind, but it's tough. I know there is a time component to this, where the longer I go without feeling super anxious the more I'm able to relax from hypervigilance to just vigilance and eventually to just awareness or something, but it's frustrating, or maybe more like disappointing. Whichever, I'm trying to be gentle with myself, take my PRN meds if I feel like I need them and working on accepting the feelings instead of trying to run from them.
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I did the dumbest thing today. I charged my earbuds, unplugged the block and put the block in my little bag instead of the earbuds. I wasn't happy about that when I got to the gym. What a dummy!
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Ever since I stopped doing therapy because of insurance, I've been feeling that old tense and irritable sense of anxiety and stress. I hate that. I was making so many strides and changes during therapy, my therapist would acknowledge all of my progress and accomplishments, and I miss that reassurance. Today I thought about it, and I made those changes! She would always tell me that I chose to...
I try to focus on the physical effects of this bizarre little all-natural high. Racing thoughts, etc., are one of those physical symptoms. Accepting that I am temporarily impaired helps me lighten up while I work my recovery.
Easy does it, Brockster. You are not alone. Lean freely. Lean often.
A setback like this after years of remission, or whatever you want to call it, sucks and is disheartening. But it also reminds me that I have a lot of work to do that I was ignoring while I was feeling okay.
So, little by little, day by day, I'm going to try to work my way back to feeling like myself, doing what I need to do to for myself and my family. (which is all way easier to say at this moment when I'm feeling pretty good then when that little voice is whispering in my ear and my heart really wants to start racing for no reason).
I am trying to work through this, but have a difficult time with it. I hope you find serenity and peace.
I know from past experience that this too shall pass. That these feelings will slowly fade and, eventually, I won't remember what I was so worried about. But I'm slowly learning that changing my relationship with anxiety is the only thing that's going to work long-term, so I'm really trying to commit myself to working on that.
Here's to hoping we can all find internal peace.
There is no cure for anxiety, but it can be managed, even during acute flareups.