Anxiety Support Group
Anxiety is a physical condition marked by intense and persistent feelings of distress, fear, angst or dread. General anxiety caused by routine day-to-day stresses usually passes quickly and is experienced by almost everyone at one time or another. However, such feelings that linger over time and are very difficult to cope with, and which lack a clear cause, may indicate...
In a matter of minutes today has went down so quickly.
I woke up from a nap feeling even worse than before. I thought it would help but really didn't. Kept trying to get ahold of my sister to figure out if she was here but couldn't reach her. I was walking back up the stairs and a freaking wasp was on the stairs flying around my legs scared the absolute shit out of me I almost had a panic attack instantly
Finally got ahold of my sister she was not nice to me seemed annoyed by it. Told my grandma she didn't seem to care either lake is literally the only one to care he was sniffing around the whole room trying to find it and when he did he tried to eat it but he is kinda slow so he didn't get it. I know he wasn't doing that to really protect me he just likes eating bugs (also I would not let him straight up eat a wasp if I could help it but I am highly allergic so I can't really go near them)
I then had to bolt down the stairs with a fat little dog in my arms and now I am laying down. Skin is itchy my hands are tingling I feel like I am straight up going to die. This is anxiety I know rationally I did not get stung but right now I am not rational please do not try to say I am having an allergic reaction because even though i know it is not possible i will 100% believe you and this will get much worse. Every time I see a wasp my brain tricks me into thinking I am about to die I constantly have to look at my throat to make sure it's not closing carefully checking my face for swelling just losing my mind.
If only my family would just listen when I ask to please keep the front door closed!!! I have said it 50 million times they come in through that door no idea how bc we have tried to tape the screen door off put a towel by the bottom opening. They still freaking come in. I hate this I hate it so much I don't want to be here I don't want to be awake I don't want to exist I am so scared and upset I want my anxiety to stop tricking me and making me panic I just want it to stop.
I've only eaten three biscuits today. That is it. Woke up from my nap and realized that so I was gonna go make food but now absolutely not. I was doing so good today getting stuff done. Now I am just incredibly angry and scared.
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Years ago, I won a mirrored armoire from my job. It's in my bedroom but I rarely stand in front of it. Yesterday, I had to have a dexascan done so I had to change into a gown. There was a full length mirror in the changing room. I'm aware that I gained 5 to 7 pounds over the last year from cheating on Keto but I didn't know what it looked like. It was a reality check.
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"don't be a hate hole" has been one of my recent mantras which seems to be escaping my mouth more and more often. it emerges when i am faced with the endless list of chores i would rather not deal with. insurance. head lice. bureaucracy. in-laws. the list goes on and on and on and on, ad infinitum.reality checks requested. am i making sense?"ever'thin they is but loving leaves a rust on your...
It was a scary incident, for sure!!!
Try to salvage the rest of the day. Make something to eat (that will help you to feel better), and find something fun to do for later.
The hot weather brings out more bugs, yuck. I had two bug bites that itched on my arm recently, and I had NO idea where that came from, or what kind of bug did that, and I got anxious.... but just went about my life and it went away in a couple days.
Worrying about what *might* happen is a waste of our time. I do that a lot too, so I know what you mean.
Keep your self calm. This is your situation, so remain calm, and figure out how you can make it better for you. No one else is going to look at it like you are, so take the time to do what works for you.
I am even more upset now though because apparently one of my cousins is here early and is staying the night. Then tomorrow everyone else is coming. Didn't even finish the cake at all and I doubt I will. I get incredibly anxious when people are around me when in baking. I feel trapped I like to do it when in alone. Now a cousins that I rarely see anymore is gonna be in there the whole time I feel like I'm just gonna break down. Today really is just bad.