Hi, I am happy to have found a group I can share and compare about my anxiety issues. A little back story, I was diagnosed with GAD by a general practitioner about 14 years ago after a couple of travel related panic attacks and anxiety attacks. I was prescribed citalopram (generic Celexa) 20mg and I slowly made it out of the fog by using the medicine and some coping mechanisms I picked up from various friends and family members. I did have a small relapse (again, travel!) and my dosaged was upped to 40mg. Since that time I have mostly been taking the 20mg, unless I have travel planned or get sick. Sickness always seems to aggravate my symptoms. I have felt in control of my symptoms for all this time, of course with breakthough attacks that I let play out, then move on, but no major problems. Skip forward to now. I had a severe case of strep throat, immediately followed by food poisoning that had me in the hospital two nights. I had a panic attack in the hospital, talked it through with the nurse, still felt a little uneasy, but continued to get better. I returned to work, though I did not feel at my normal level of energy or general health. After a week and a half, we went on Thanksgiving break, in which I traveled (!) and then it all fell apart. I would have turned around and went home immediately if it hadn't been for others on the trip. I managed through with the unexpected help of CBD oil (had never tried it before) and thought if I could just get home, I would be okay. I get home and things get worse. Like, I feel like I am back a step one. Tonight I went to the ER just to get something to calm me, because I literally couldn't stop crying. I'm not usually a crier at all, and I was a sobbing mess. I feel so powerless and that I the work I had done to get to this point is out the door. I have an appointment with my general practictioner tomorrow. Thanks for any ideas or support you can offer. I feel very helpless.
Just an update on how I'm doing. I just feel like a complete basket case. I'm not liking myself these days. I think its from past abandonment trauma and from my boyfriend cheating. Im just an insecure mess that needs constant validation from everyone. Im not liking myself so much lately and I constantly feel people are going to dislike me for complaining all the time. In general I worry...