My boyfriend of two months, yes TWO months... is sleeping still. It is 5:12 Pm on a Thursday...
Today is second day off from work. I worked all day. I came home 2 hours ago. House is filthy. He did nothing but play video games, watch porn (I snooped..) and sleep.
I know it's very new but we think we are in love, at least I thought so.
Within the first 2 weeks. We were living together. I just felt he was the one.
Typing this makes me feel silly and stupid. Was I lonely? Is it really Love?
I feel hard and fast. Like usual. Why do I do this??
There is more bothering me too..like him not being open to his feelings towards me.. would it hurt if he told me im beautiful? We have a connection but I wish he could just communicate with me...
Here it is, almost Christmas time. I feel lost and broken. I have a 12 yr old son that lives with me. I may lose my apartment. I am broke. I feel so emotionally disconnected from my boyfriend.
Why do I always look past the bad things?? I like to see the good in people.
I have 102 notifications. Don't read posts much anymore.I belong to several groups. I don't need to be notifiedevery time a person posts. It's annoying.
How many years of psychotherapy does it take to work past the confusion of psychosis? After 40+ years of psychotherapy to help me recover from the side-effects of surviving child sex trafficking, I am beginning to think that goal of a confusion free life is *simply* unattainable. Come to think about it, psychotherapists might even be the ones who put that unattainability on my radar. Life gets...