My one way of coping in life has been through art. Early in my art hobby, I decided to start gathering local artists and we made sort of a collective but loosely defined. I put on a show in an art gallery, a barber shop, held paint battles and meet and greets but last year felt like the group was more focused on the needs of the individual than of the group and creating opportunities for people other than themselves. I felt heartbroken and disenchanted and stepped away for a few months but never fully shut down the project.
I gained a new friend late last year - they also put on shows featuring art and music in the past. We were just friends until I said, of course, why don't we organize something together. I found the venue but they came with me to meet the owner. I made the posters, did the write ups for marketing including the press release, started budgeting for advertising, put out calls to artists and they asked some friends if they'd come play the show. They were supposed to make two small posters in the past four weeks and in the last week, email performers they didn't have a friendship with and create a set list to notify everyone. I went to their house and created a new illustration, uploaded it and designed a poster in the time it took them to print off an image someone else created. I asked for a set list for the past week and they keep saying they'll do it but they don't.
I'm doing this show to make money to save for my future living situation. Right now I'm splitting the profits with them and I think that's asinine. The whole thing has given me serious anxiety - now I have to confront my friend and ask them to step back from their responsibilities because they're not getting done and then an awkward conversation that they don't deserve half of the profits.
I know, I never should've went into "business" with a friend but it's an art show not a corporation and I thought people would do their job because they volunteered for the jobs.
I'm not going to take it personal because I really just want money and I will put on a good show as I have already generated great interest in it. Still doesn't help my anxiety though.
I always struggle during the evening I just want to go to bed, really early like about 7pm. I am highly nervous, on edge, try to distract myself but nothing works. My hands shake, my heart races, even the tv is too much on times.I am taking anti depressent tablets, and vallium what should I do next? Any advise????????
My anxiety is at an all time high, the Fall semester ended December 8th and I'm one step closer to achieving my academic goals. Nevertheless, as of lately I've been an emotional wreck and feel like a failure, I'm so lonely it hurts, I'm 33 years-old and have never had a romantic relationship, never, and I feel as though I'm running out time (anxiety). I have been crying and longing a lot over...