Just after I wrote this, I had a 5 minute anxiety attack because I was taking out the trash and my back door doesn't open all the way. I got mad. Then I had to come to the realization that it's actually my fault that the door doesn't open all the way. There's stuff all over the floor. Clean it girlfriend!

perhaps the most important gift i receive from working with animals is that they reflect my moods more accurately than any other psych inventory tool i have ever used. when my animals run from me, it's time to drop everything and make time for some intensive therapy work. typically anger channeling, in my own case. equally, they give me clear, easy read signals on how the therapy work is going. when my most timid donkey rests his chin on my shoulder, i know the work has paid off.

is it weird that i am more likely to use unapproved words casually than in anger? when i curse somebody or something, i seldom limit myself to the bad word lists.

Thanks arfie! I hear ya! Your donkey must be so sweet. My best friend sends me TikTok videos all the time. I don't really like them but there was one member named Mommy Farmer that was enjoyable. She loved her animals and treated them kindly. Someone copied her theme and she stopped posting. My parents cursed so I picked it up but my mother always said not to use the Lord's name in vain and because of my anger outbursts, God and Jesus are included. I think it's fine to cuss but I am choosing to cut down. I am about to go into Lidl. I need eggs and milk and cheese. I have only been in here once for something for my Aunt.

my avi pict is of odie, the more aggressive of my two donkeys. he loves helping me channel my anger. bring it on, cupcake. YEEEEEEHAAAAW! ! !

my timid donkey is gary. he steers a wide berth around odie and i when we are anger channeling. his chin on our shoulders let's us know when that job is done.

and? ? ? has your cat resumed speaking to you yet?

Donkeys are cool! My cat bounced right back. His name is Akira. When I don't see him, I say out loud, where's the baby at? Most times he answers right here or comes running. He is the funniest cat I've ever had. Have you ever had a cat fall asleep on your lap whilst on the toilet?

as much as i respect their potentials as therapy animals, me and house cats can barely coexist. i don't do litter boxes.

i have been trying to establish a colony of barn cats here on my farm to help keep the rodent population under control. i have nothing but abandoned/feral house cats to work with. it is reminding me allot of trying to get the 5th generation welfare recipients in my family to give independent life a try. begging for a living is a hard conditioning to shake. so far the closest i've come is getting them to hunt for their store bought cat food in one of the barn and they are even rather pathetic with that inconvenience. "you call this, "meals on wheels?"

i have fond -albeit childish-- memories of the barn cat colonies on the abandoned farms i was raised on. i am starting to wonder if house cats have evolved to be an entirely new species from those self-empowered hunters.