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funeral on friday..

xobliquityx
xobliquityx
My grandma passed away yesterday and her funeral is on Friday. I have toleave my home at 830am to get there by 10. I'm really anxious and nervous to go.. I don't want to face that she's gone. She took care of me when my mom died when I was 6 years old up until I moved when I was 8 and then moved to another state when I was 12. I barely saw her after that but talked to her almost everyday. She gave me confidence and I can't thank her enough for being my only support system. Our relationship became estranged when my stepmom decided to tell my grandma certain personal things I told her in confidence. From that point on I was too embarrassed to talk to my grandma.. so I barely saw her at all. I introduced her to my husband 2 years ago, I felt it needed to be done. And she wasn't doing too well.. she kept forgetting what she said and repeating things.. scary. Then she broke both hips and developed pneumonia. I wanted to see her in the hospital for the past year an a half but I was too anxious. I remember seeing my mom in the hospital before she died and it still haunts me 15 years later. My grandma is with my mom and it puts my mind at ease. I just wish I was with her so she wasn't alone when she went..I wasn't ready for her to go. How am I going to get through Friday? I can't say goodbye..
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deleted_user
It's hard but you willl get through it. You also have the support of your hiusband so that should help. Just feel everything that goes on with you, it's part of the healing process. It won't be easy but you can grow from this.
rskb3
rskb3
i'm sorry you lost your grandma. I know that you can make it through this it won;t be easy but you can do this. I'm sure it brings up a lot of bad memories from losing your mom at such a young age. just lean on your husband that is what he is there for.
StarrySummerSkies
StarrySummerSkies
I'm also very sorry to hear this. My grandma passed this last October. You are not alone. I got so ill from the news, I could not attend her funeral. You are brave having to be there; she would be more present than you realize, I'm sure. Mine made some appearances weeks post dying but that's a whole other story.

Hugs. They love us even though they have committed mistakes in life.
chelle37
chelle37
I'm so sorry for your loss! It sounds like you believe in heaven or some sort of life after this one. I'd say to express to your grandma when you're how you feel about wanting to be there, and not being able to, etc. Then try to let it go, from the sounds of your grandma I'm sure she understands. As for the funeral, looking at your post it sounds like it has already happened by now. I hope you had lots of support through it, and that will continue to get support through your grieving. ((hugs))
Community LeaderMid
Mid
Sorry for the loss of your grandma.

Hope you are doing well.
kandeekandy733
kandeekandy733
I'm sorry to hear this hun, I hope you will be ok I know it's hard but you are strong, your still here, looking for help opening up, just hang in there hun. Hugs
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