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Fight or flight or projectile vomit

OllieTree
OllieTree

I feel like I am about to throw up. 


The amount of anxiety I feel on a daily basis. I am nauseous. I am nonexistent. I am not here.  


I am exhausted. 


This is a stark contrast from where I was when summer ended. Before school started.


This isn’t normal. This is beyond anxiety. I shouldn’t have flight or flight response over what color to make my crochet bear’s fucking muzzle. Or the post it notes in my environmental science book. I shouldnt have mood swings cycling from extremely optimistic and excited to deeply angry and frustrated to bottomlessly tired and depressed to motivated and confident to dissociating to world’s end and anxious to the point of nausea in one day. In one day. This is so wrong. I’m dissociating too hard to even register I am movingn my own fingers. I’m dissociating too hard to even feel like my feelings are my own. 


I shouldn’t feel completely in control and happy and confident one moment and then go to this the next. I can’t trust myself like this. I can’t predict myself. I can’t plan for it or around it. 


I feel like crying and screaming then bleeding to death. I feel like leaking down a drain. I feel like staying silent and still and rotting away alive. 


But I have no idea what to do. 


arfie
arfie
On the Arf Scale, you just did one thing I know to do when these abnormal intensities strike. The feelings are all normal, but not so much the intensities. It's normal to feel a bit of anxiety over what color to make the crochet bear's muzzle, but not to the extent of flight or fight, much less dissociating. Getting my anxieties out of my head and onto paper often helps me get things into perspective.

Did it help you any?

Steadying support while you find what helps you balance that intensity load, Ollie. Listening. . .
Kingsolomon66
Kingsolomon66
In everything fight O. Fight for the right to be happy and in control. You experience this in kick boxing, what pushes you to excell when you hit the wall? One more kick, one more punch. In Mauy Thai I learned you really started training after your body gives up control.... This was usually by puking out your guts. If you feel like this, then you've pushed anxiety to the brink do it fights back harder and dirtier. Pull no punches warrior and tell yourself you deserve happiness and serenity. Kick it's ASS!
patternskies
patternskies
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