Hello everyone my name is Michelle I have not been on here in a long time but I just need some support because I don't know what to do anymore. I am a 31 year old that has anxiety I also have a learning disabilty which makes it difficult to be accepted and make friends. This is where it gets hard for me to where I am starting to suffer depression because my anxiety is getting high now. The friends that I have also have a learning disabilty and they live 30 minutes away from me. I have a guy friend coming from out of town this weekwho used to live here who calls me daily muliple times a day. Up until a month ago I was seeing him here everyday he is staying at our firends house. Keep in mind my friend that lives here I have always offered to help her out whenever she needs she doesn't drive so I help cause I just feel like a good person. She talked to him a month ago saying I was obessed with him which I wasn't he clearly calls me everyday. She complains to be about other people, I have been unvited to see him and the events they are doing while he is here then they invite me back and they uninvite me. She has even ended the friendship but we worked it out I thought but then days later texted me saying she is forced to be my friend. I realize I just not have someone like that in my life there is another friend when I go to visit who says the same thing she says I need to stop going down there after I put in hard work to help her out. My friends have never stood up for me. The reason I put up with it is because I don't have any other friends I have tried to go to meetings around me area where once again I wasnt accepted. My guy friend who is coming into town asked me out last December begging me to move to his state but then he didnt want to wait. I am so embarrest with my life I feel like I have no friends I am being forced to live somewhere that is not right for me I am not happy at all I have tried everything. I have never been asked out on a date and im 31 who has not had a boyfriend before and now I am losing friends. What have I done to deserve all this hurt. I realize this is very long I already put in a call to my therapist I am waiting for her to get back from vacation but I just could not wait.I have never felt so alone.
I have always thought that I have been socially awkward. I have always felt that I did not belong around groups of friends during high school. It always seemed that I was the one people felt sorry for, so they did not push me away due to pittying me. I have difficulty making friends outside of online aspects. I always have issues naturally bringing up topics when thrown into social events, for...