I've been burned out from taking care of my Aunt so I haven't been visiting as much.  Also, my life has been extra busy. Just everyday, there's something.  Like today, I have to come straight home so my handyman can come to fix my siding that fell off.  Therefore, I can't go to the gym (again).  Yesterday, I was at my friend Lisa's house for a little get-together as she is having lung surgery this morning.  While I was there, my Aunt's daughter called me to say that her Mom wasn't doing well and could I go for a visit?  She was in Florida with her best friend and kids.  We couldn't get in touch with her brother so I was it.  I was a little mad.  I had my day all planned out.  I had a Walmart pick-up for 5 p.m.  Then I was going to go to ShopRite for a great deal on pet stuff.  So I'm on my way to see my Aunt and her son calls me.  He just left there and had left his phone at home but he called from his wife's phone.  He said that his Mom was doing terrible and that he prayed with her.  He was heartbrokien.  So I was a little scared to be going by myself.  My brother was beat from his work week and didn't come with me.  So anyway, my Aunt looked terrible and sounded terrible.  She hadn't had much to eat or drink since Friday.  She managed to give me hell about not visiting.  She said that she needed companionship and milk and food.  Honestly, I haven't even been able to do stuff for myself like keeping up with the gym and mowing my lawn.  I've either been too tired, too busy or it's been raining.  Anyway, Messenger has a video feature which I'm glad that I remembered as I don't have an iPhone to do FaceTime.  So I did a video with my Aunt and her daughter.  They said I love you to each other.  So then my Aunt's granddaughter came and i left.  Now I am feeling really bad about not having had the time or energy or actually, the desire to visit as I had been.  i have been helping to take care of my Aunt for at least 22 years.  I'm burnt out.