im sitting here trying to think about the last time I really felt normal. Like the last time I didn’t let fear take over my reasoning. I don’t know if it happened overnight or a little at a time. Now the fear is constantly there. It comes as anxiety and depression. I honestly believe that’s where things went wrong with me. I didn’t want to upset the Apple cart as they say. Instead of just making that one decision that one time, I let fear intervene. Now I have to deal with the repercussions and that’s where the stress and stuff comes from. I knew what I had to do and I didn’t. Now sometimes i feel like the anxiety and depression is punishment for not taking action when I had the chance. It’s a viscous cycle you know. I post this in hopes that it could help someone out. Sometimes you have to get a little uncomfortable for things to be comfortable. I had someone equate it to taking off a band-aid. You try to peel it off slowly and it hurts the whole time. If you just ripped it off it would only hurt that second.