Hi Pete,
I'm so sorry for the loss of your Aunt. That breaks my heart that you had someone in your life pass away that was there for you and took care of you. Remember all the good times and cherish the moments that you shared together. She sounds like a wonderful person.

I'm happy that you met someone that cares for you. You have a lot to be thankful and grateful for. And I do hope she is there forever for you. Thank you so much for sharing. You take good care. Italianmomma4ever

It has to be the isolation and subsequent loneliness of avoiding social interactions. I long for deep intimate connections but have never had one.
And when I do decide to participate in group activities I feel as though I don't quite belong. I frequently replay in my mind what I said-often kicking myself for things that I contributed, seeing them as 'wrong' or what I should have said in the moment.
There have also been times when Ive frozen completely during impromptu group ice breaker questions at work.

Hi Mindfulness,
Sorry to hear about your isolating yourself and the loneliness is very hard. Right now is a hard time for everyone to socialize. We all are isolating and just trying to stay safe.

I'm sure when you are in group activities it probably feels awkward. That's just something that you need to work on. Interacting with people and just enjoying conversations. I'm sure your not saying anything wrong. That's probably all in your mind.

Sure it can be hard to interact with people. But the more you do it the more you will feel comfortable doing. Just be yourself and I'm sure people will see the real you. Don't be so hard on yourself. You can do this. Have confidence in yourself.

If you want to talk, Private Message me. Italianmomma4ever