For as long as I can remember I’ve always had anxiety. When I was a teenager I was able to control my anxiety until I reached my second year in college.10 years later and I’m still struggling with day-to-day basis of leaving the house out of fear talking to people and just being myself. I have lost my job back in March of 2019 and was unemployed for six months.  I isolated myself from people only because the job that I had I work remotely and I worked there for two years without having any type of human interaction except for my husband and some of our friends and family but their interaction hasn’t been long it’s usually short and I had to take myself away from situations. It’s a constant struggle to talk with people in person. I can do communication very well online but when it comes to face-to-face conversation I have a hard time. I was diagnosed with viral meningitis back in April &  my anxiety got even worse to the point that I’m having more panic attacks than anything I cryo-often and also think very down of myself which is very different because I’ve always been a positive person. Sorry this is so long it’s just the fact that I don’t talk to anybody really about it except for my therapist and my psychiatrist and I don’t want to go to support groups because of how my schedule is with a new job that I just started and that has been struggle as well to accomplish. Some days I feel very alone people just don’t understand where I’m coming from  with the struggles that I haven’t endured. When I try to talk about it with people I feel very little compared to them because they don’t understand or they’re just in shock that I asked some of the questions that I do ask. It’s somewhat embarrassing to me and I tend to cry on a daily basis. I just don’t know what to do.