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Christmas Eve panic attack

shannon1989
shannon1989

this is my first Christmas without family ever. Typically we go to my family's or my husbands family but this year we decided to just take it easy and stay home. My family was going to visit but they ended up having to postpone. I thought I would be fine but suddenly laying down for bed I just realized how distant everyone has gotten and I have family all over the place even family overseas and this feeling of being completely alone washed over me. Now it's 1am and I'm having a panic attack took a fraction of a xanax (because I am running out, just add that to the stress pile) and losing it. Shaking, crying, just horrible feeling of dread. I have so much to be thankful for but I can't shake the feeling of being alone. 



I husr want want to feel normal. I want to lay down and sleep and forget everything all my problems all my anxiety just snore like my husband is right now so peaceful and worry free. Why can't I be normal?!

Tired
Tired
I had tears in my eyes when I read your post. I have wished I could be normal many
times myself. I have had Generalised Anxiety Disorder all my life. Plus OCD off and on.
It's hard to accept that I have to cope with anxiety most of the time. But I'm trying.
Other people have to cope with things like chronic pain, PTSD, etc. Not everyone has
an easy or simple life.
Community LeaderMid
Mid
Take a moment to breathe, drink some liquid, and make a tradition of memories moments to give this a positive connection. Anxiety is natural, it does not mean either positive or negative, so putting our thoughts in order and using the ones that make us smile will help us manage the other thoughts.
4evertryingtoimprove
4evertryingtoimprove
Hey, I've frequently wished I was normal, but I think that's a false ideal. Yes, maybe our life would be a lot easier if we were closer to the average in many aspects of life. If we were better looking, smarter, mentally blissful, etc. , but most people aren't normal in every aspect of life. Being normal means HAVING SOMETHING THAT MAKES YOUR LIFE HARDER. That is normal, most people aren't normal in every regard. Realize everyone has problems and all that is expected of you is to try your best, nothing more. Don't fantasize about being someone else, love yourself and focus on improving yourself as a person. Above all, don't over fixate on you being different, you fit right in with humanity.
shannon1989
shannon1989
Thanks you guys. It helps to know I'm not alone. I am punching myself for waiting until it gets this bad to see a new doctor. Today I'm better but still racing thoughts. I took an Ativan that I had from a few years ago (trying to make my xanax last) -and like with most things it relaxes my body but not my mind. I also have been looking at the possibility of having PMDD. Just so tired of feeling helpless and hopeless. Even this morning my husband asked for me to please not hurt myself. I try to remember it's not a bad life it's just a bad day, but it feels like it's never going to end.
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