Hello Hobby Kollector. Welcome to DS.

My own anxiety is quite severe and decisions don't even need to be major to trigger my decision-making anxiety. I can agonize over whether to get the blue one or the red one. For trivial decisions such as which color, I flip a coin. The color of my new appliance won't matter much by the end of the first use.

For major decisions, such as whether I want to continue on my current career path, I more often go the path of least resistance. Great jobs are evolved, not found. Revamping my career path at every shift in my mood is a sure route to instability. Finishing that degree doesn't decide your future. It is only proof that you can finish a project and a single brick in the path of your life.

So opineth the Arf. . .

Gentle support while you sort your own. Welcome aboard. . .

For what it's worth
When I have set out to make a living out of my most passionate hobbies, I found myself grieving the loss of the hobby as the pressure to buy groceries started turning my most beloved hobby into **work**. These days I guard the cathartic value of my hobbies and just let **work** be a four letter word that ends in a hard sound. Just. . .

Why did you choose engineering in the first place? Your decision or your parents' decision?

Your college should have career counseling and maybe they do what is called aptitude testing. To see if your aptitude lies with engineering or what. Many students start to feel scared in their final year of college because real life and working a job is around the corner. The comfy womb of college is almost over and a big change is coming. It is normal to feel anxious about upcoming change. I'd suggest you sit down with pen to paper and write out why you feel anxious and dig deep to see is this just fear around the upcoming change of graduation. Or what.

If you think you are not really cut out for engineering, I'd suggest you get a full time job upon graduation and see how you like it. Do your art at nights and weekends. Many people find their hobbies or artistic outlets bring them more fulfillment than their regular jobs. Hobbies also take our minds off our troubles and bring us peace inside. Jobs as the fulfillment of our lives is kind of a myth, although some find it. I am saying this because I assume you are making good enough grades to graduate in the program. People who have no aptitude for engineering usually do not have success with grades and coursework. Art jobs pay little money in a lot of cases although one could switch gears and get a teaching degree in art history or high school art teaching. Where I live, graphic design is very difficult to make money at, the jobs are often freelance, and low paid unfortunately.

Thank you for all of the advice and support. I chose engineering because I thought that I would be able to use my artistic abilities when designing and it would provide a good paying job. That being said, my family has a number of engineers already and I did feel pressure to go to college for something 'useful'. I would like to think that the decision was mine but it was probably not as informed of a decision as I would have liked.

I realize that this is probably minor anxiety that comes with leaving college. I appreciate all of the great tips, you have given me more to think about and I hope I can do it in a cool minded impartial way. I think that I will agonize for awhile but probably will end up getting a full time job after I graduate to try it out. I just don't want to regret not following my dreams and resenting myself later. I will try your idea of writing out everything and see if it helps too. Again, thank you for the third party insight, going around and around in my own head makes me anxious and I think hearing from other people definitely helps. Happy holidays.