I've been struggling a lot lately. My heart palpitations in the middle of the night continue to prevent me from getting much sleep. I'm able to fall asleep just fine, but as soon as I wake up to change positions, the anxiety immediately pounces on me. I try breathing techniques and listening to calming videos, but no success. My body feels physically tired, but my heart/brain refuse to allow me to go into deep sleep.

I take my medicine in the mornings, which helps a little bit after I finish breakfast. However, the constant anxiety continues to crush me. My wife has been a great support, but I feel I always tell her the same thing over and over again about my anxiety. I sometimes fear she will get sick of me, despite her strong support. My parents are also great supports, but I feel bad for being a burden (that's how I feel, at least). My next therapy appointment is in 3 weeks. I worry about my job, and whether a career path change needs to be made. I do enjoy my job, but I constantly worry about it, which is not helping my anxiety.

My daughter and wife are my two motivations to keep moving forward. I'm worried I'll someday drop dead of a heart attack or stroke from all of this anxiety. I want to see my daughter grow up and reach all of the fun milestones (graduate high school and college, get married, her having kids so my wife and I can spoil them, buying her first house, etc.). I just wish I could be happier. I feel I've tried everything (that I know of), but can't catch a break. I feel so defeated.