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Broken hearted.

Diamond86
Diamond86

Hi guys..So I've told the story before but will tell it again.


In July I had my first mental break down ever. This caused me to be in a state of psychosis. I was delusional and hallucinating a little. It didn't last long. It was super scary and unfortunately my son, age 13, witnessed some of it. The guilt is really getting to me. 


Soo.. in July, I had to be hospitalized in a mental hospital the 1st time in my life. My sons father took him to live with him while I took care of my mental health.


I've been in counseling, case management and medication management. I feel much better, just broken hearted. I miss my son like crazy.


While I was in the hospital, child protective services got involved but case was closed and the letter said no findings. It does state my mom, dad and I be supervised when it comes to my son... :( guess who has to supervise? My sons father.


My sons father is controlling. I'm taking him to court for contempt. He won't give him back to me. He agreed I could take him next weekend then changed his mind. 


How do I cope with this? It's tearing me apart. Child protective services put too much power in his hands. My kid misses his mom and home.. my father I could see why he needs supervised visits (sex offender) but not my mom and i. I don't know for sure if my dad did anything but I've decided to keep a relationship with him..and no, I don't condemn that behavior.  Ughhhh. I can barely go home because it reminds me of my son.



Sorry, I know I'm all over the place but I'm just really hurting


Thanks for listening 

arfie
arfie
Ouch on ouch on ouch and ouch again. That bites like a bad dog. I have a different role in a similar family drama and it do seem like the fun will never end.

I don't have any clean or easy answers for either one of us, but venting about it helps me sort through the mind-fuck of it all. Hope you will feel safe to keep right on venting about it here. I hate repeating myself, but it seems to help if I can tell the story over and over until I find a happier ending.

Gentle support while you sort your own, Diamond. Vent freely. Vent often. Repetition allowed.
Diamond86
Diamond86
Arfie- I've never experienced pain like this before... I even miss bringing my kid to the grocery store... sigh. Trying to stay positive but it's so hard and his father is so evil... the only way I can see my child is to go to his house and he makes me so uncomfortable.

Thank you so much and take care
Tired
Tired
Call a lawyer or legal aid if you can't afford a lawyer.
See if anything can be changed. Talk to your case manager
also.
mlj6019
mlj6019
I hate you are going thru this separation with your son. I know how much I would miss mine if I couldn’t see one of them. That must hurt very deeply. I’m glad you reached out to share again and that you took the time to take care of your mental illness and that you are feeling better now. Keep talking and never give up. There has to be some resources and options out there for you. I wish I could be more help but I do hope you get to see your son and eventually get him back. God bless.
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