Hi guys..So I've told the story before but will tell it again.
In July I had my first mental break down ever. This caused me to be in a state of psychosis. I was delusional and hallucinating a little. It didn't last long. It was super scary and unfortunately my son, age 13, witnessed some of it. The guilt is really getting to me.
Soo.. in July, I had to be hospitalized in a mental hospital the 1st time in my life. My sons father took him to live with him while I took care of my mental health.
I've been in counseling, case management and medication management. I feel much better, just broken hearted. I miss my son like crazy.
While I was in the hospital, child protective services got involved but case was closed and the letter said no findings. It does state my mom, dad and I be supervised when it comes to my son... :( guess who has to supervise? My sons father.
My sons father is controlling. I'm taking him to court for contempt. He won't give him back to me. He agreed I could take him next weekend then changed his mind.
How do I cope with this? It's tearing me apart. Child protective services put too much power in his hands. My kid misses his mom and home.. my father I could see why he needs supervised visits (sex offender) but not my mom and i. I don't know for sure if my dad did anything but I've decided to keep a relationship with him..and no, I don't condemn that behavior. Ughhhh. I can barely go home because it reminds me of my son.
Sorry, I know I'm all over the place but I'm just really hurting
Thanks for listening
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