Anxiety Support Group
Anxiety is a physical condition marked by intense and persistent feelings of distress, fear, angst or dread. General anxiety caused by routine day-to-day stresses usually passes quickly and is experienced by almost everyone at one time or another. However, such feelings that linger over time and are very difficult to cope with, and which lack a clear cause, may indicate...
As of lately I have been beyond stressed. Tonight on my way home from work I just broke down and cried. I am trying to stay strong. To stay positive. Work is probably the worst of it. I am no longer happy there. It's not the kids, it's not really even the job. It's the environment. It's the pettiness. The nastiness. It's parents not taking responsibility for their children and coddling them and then blaming everyone else. It all adds up and I've come to realize I no longer enjoy my job. I wish it wasn't true. I am desperately trying to find a new job. A new career. I really want to get into the medical field. I took the medical billers class online and tried for the exam twice and failed both times by 1 question. It's a hard exam. But I am still trying. Still hopeful. But going to work stresses me out now. Makes me anxious. And by being anxious I make more mistakes. I do more stupid things. I just wish I could stop, take a deep breath and let it all go. Just relax and not worry I feel like things could get better in the meantime till I make that change, find that new job. The proverbial straw that broke the camals back was that a grandparent came in to get her granddaughter and told my boss that the mother was pulling the child because the little girl came to school every day crying that she didn't want to come and that I was mean to her. The child is often referred to as a pain in the ass by the grandmother and she is a pistol. But I however never knew that she was crying in the morning because by the time I got in she was happy. She would scream my name and run to me. Like I told my boss, I can't fix a problem that I don't know exists. Apparently everyone in the morning knew but nobody ever said anything to me about it. When my boss and I talked about it I said the only time I really ever have to talk to the child is when I know for sure that the child took a toy away from her friend and she has to give it back. She gets upset and stubborn. Does give it back but then I get glared at. Other than that I really never have to talk to the child. So for the child to go home and say thats why I am being mean and then for the parent to give in this like? Who knows. I just know that when I have to watch what I say because a just turned 3 yr old can go to her parent and they get upset over this. What's the world coming to? This job is no longer fun. It's more stressful now than it ever has been. It use to be fun. I use to enjoy it. I so badly want out. I wake up every morning dreading going to work. I wake up in the middle of the night stressing about it. This isn't healthy. It's not good for my health. Right now my life seems like it is just going downhill. I know that it really isn't. It's just how I feel. But this is why I come here.. Because you guys understand better than anyone does.
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I did the dumbest thing today. I charged my earbuds, unplugged the block and put the block in my little bag instead of the earbuds. I wasn't happy about that when I got to the gym. What a dummy!
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Ever since I stopped doing therapy because of insurance, I've been feeling that old tense and irritable sense of anxiety and stress. I hate that. I was making so many strides and changes during therapy, my therapist would acknowledge all of my progress and accomplishments, and I miss that reassurance. Today I thought about it, and I made those changes! She would always tell me that I chose to...
But that is me and every case is unique.
There are tons of conclusions and solutions for this phenom. Gentle support while you find what works for you, Brooke.
I know how you feel. I too am on a stressful job that I no longer enjoy. It can be very stressful and to the point of not wanting to get out of the bed to go to work. When I get to this point, I take a day off. Have you considered taking a day away and focusing on yourself and your future job? For me, just having a day away makes a difference in how I feel. There is hope for your future. You are soo close to passing your exam for medical billing. Don't give up. Keep trying until you pass. Sometimes it doesn't matter what we do, there will always be someone that thinks we aren't doing the right thing. I think you are right in being careful about what you do and say around the kids. Having a job with kids has become a very sensitive job with everything that's been happening in different schools and childcare places. There is hope. Wishing you the best.
The high demands of working with young children, the parents deflecting problems on to you and the long hours must make you feel extremely weary.
If you can take some time off and focus on you and what you'd really like to do, that might really help. Best of Luck