Anxiety Support Group
Anxiety is a physical condition marked by intense and persistent feelings of distress, fear, angst or dread. General anxiety caused by routine day-to-day stresses usually passes quickly and is experienced by almost everyone at one time or another. However, such feelings that linger over time and are very difficult to cope with, and which lack a clear cause, may indicate...
I have anxiety , and it worsens when I have what my Dr calls " situation depression " ...
I have more anxiety this week as I lost a client who passed 2 weeks ago and I had to take another job inside an assisted living facility which was great the first couple nights till a new shift of women came on and laid most of the hard tasks on me ... I am recovering still from gallbladder and hernia surgeries ... they knew this and just didn't give a care about it at all ... I work the 11 pm till 7 am shift ... they just wanted to find a corner to sleep in and not be bothered ...
I have been alone for almost 15 yrs too , other than 3 times over this time I was engaged to find the men I was to marry were liars and cheats , the last being the worst who legally stole me blind of 12,000.00 , so I am over the last two years rebuilding my life again at age 55 ...
I have also got a online friend who was my rock ( he lives in Australia ) he has for the last year been distant and very brutally aggressive with his abuse verbally . I love this man more than anyone I've ever dated or been married to ... we've been best friends for 11 yrs , he has seen me thru thick and thin with the 3 men and with all the problems in my life and 2 years ago asked me to stop seeing men as I was killing myself and he would come to America and be with me .... but now he lies to me , and I know it , he is verbally abusive and he has been so cold ...he sits online all night and day and visits chatrooms and speaks to people who tear down people or women who flirt with him ... and I have tried to let him go but he always finds some way to get me to talk to him again ... I am co-dependant on him and this makes me have such anxiety I run for the Zanax every time ... I walk on eggshells around him , whether on the phone or online ... I never know when he is going to blow up or get all loving and compassionate ... everything is always my fault ... I gave him the password to my Netflix account so we could watch a movie together online and because it ate up his broadband and he had to pay more before his monthly bill was due to keep his net on , it was my fault ... I didn't know he didn't have unlimited access to the net as I do ...
I want to get rid of the net sometimes so badly its unreal ....
I want a life without all the hassles and lies men tell , but I seem to have a target on my forehead that says .... take Anna for all she's got then leave her for dead , she can handle it "
I have more anxiety this week as I lost a client who passed 2 weeks ago and I had to take another job inside an assisted living facility which was great the first couple nights till a new shift of women came on and laid most of the hard tasks on me ... I am recovering still from gallbladder and hernia surgeries ... they knew this and just didn't give a care about it at all ... I work the 11 pm till 7 am shift ... they just wanted to find a corner to sleep in and not be bothered ...
I have been alone for almost 15 yrs too , other than 3 times over this time I was engaged to find the men I was to marry were liars and cheats , the last being the worst who legally stole me blind of 12,000.00 , so I am over the last two years rebuilding my life again at age 55 ...
I have also got a online friend who was my rock ( he lives in Australia ) he has for the last year been distant and very brutally aggressive with his abuse verbally . I love this man more than anyone I've ever dated or been married to ... we've been best friends for 11 yrs , he has seen me thru thick and thin with the 3 men and with all the problems in my life and 2 years ago asked me to stop seeing men as I was killing myself and he would come to America and be with me .... but now he lies to me , and I know it , he is verbally abusive and he has been so cold ...he sits online all night and day and visits chatrooms and speaks to people who tear down people or women who flirt with him ... and I have tried to let him go but he always finds some way to get me to talk to him again ... I am co-dependant on him and this makes me have such anxiety I run for the Zanax every time ... I walk on eggshells around him , whether on the phone or online ... I never know when he is going to blow up or get all loving and compassionate ... everything is always my fault ... I gave him the password to my Netflix account so we could watch a movie together online and because it ate up his broadband and he had to pay more before his monthly bill was due to keep his net on , it was my fault ... I didn't know he didn't have unlimited access to the net as I do ...
I want to get rid of the net sometimes so badly its unreal ....
I want a life without all the hassles and lies men tell , but I seem to have a target on my forehead that says .... take Anna for all she's got then leave her for dead , she can handle it "
I hope that things get better for you. I think working on being happy for yourself and having good boundaries can help.
I feel your pain. I am a newly licensed nurse. During the program I started to get anxiety and realized how codependent I was..My Mother was an alcoholic and violent . I learned about the children of alcoholics during that program..
I have had 2 failed marriages..first one almost killed me...yes he tried to kill me...the second one ...just poured salt in the wound. My children daughter 32 and son 20 I feel keep their distance.especially my daughter who I just helped move to Tennessee yesterday. Maybe they think I am crazy not sure..I could be making that up. I have 3 sisters and 2 brothers. all have alcohol or drug problems and over the years I have estranged myself. too much chaos...or now I know..the codependency roles I have seen myself in..I don't want to play. This has given anxiety.
I consider myself educated but feel really stupid that I did not give myself any compassion...I am doing that now...before its too late..