Maybe a new activity or hobby might help?Take a walk everyday?
Some to get your mind away from reality for a little while. And something comforting or interesting.

Yes. The mind is a hard thing to stop overthinking and put aside the worries.
I do take walks. I have two dogs so at least they force me out to walk.
I’m just sad.
And then I really don’t have anyone supporting me at home.

Stop thinking. Start "Doing Thinking".

Get up at 4:30 am and do something quiet. You're awake, so your brain is ready to "do".

Make time to worry. Set aside a specific time to worry. Then the rest of the time, put worry into a box to open up when the time you set aside to worry comes.

Only YOU can change how YOU support yourself. Support comes from within, the brain and body need your help to get back into balance.

You are not alone. Hope your time with therapy helps.

Has sharing about those anxieties here been helping any?

For what it's worth
I am among the kooks who hold 4 a.m. as a "Bewitching Hour." Whether I am on my way to bed or just getting out of bed, I always have to pause to savor 4 a.m. Did you know there is a Museum of Four in the Morning. I'm not alone in my kookery.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C0byYFXjRJM

Thank you for this feedback and really good advice!
when you stop and think about what has been said here, it is all so true.
Worry solves nothing. It changes nothing. I wish when I am at my low points I can think this way.
And the stop thinking, start doing....I really need to follow this. I have a plentiful of things to do. But i waste my time in my thoughts .

AND here is one more for you...I am afraid to be happy, or even just satisified. I am afraid something bad will happen if I let my guard down.

DOES anyone else suffer from this behavior???

AND yes sharing here is exactly one of the things I need.
I need to let out, even if in type, the way I am feeling!!
SO THANK YOU

Ah. Writing out afraid to be happy or satisfied-that's telling it like it is within your thinking.

Here's to finding your path to healing and know you're doing a great job in moving it forward!

Does anyone else feel that way? Like letting your guard down and giving yourself a break for a minute, something bad will happen?

I used a doodle ditty that I doodled a kajillion times. I hung the ditty in several random places throughout my paths of business-as-usual, used them as place marks in books I was reading, stuck them in my pocket to pull out when I needed to remind myself, etc., The ditty said:

"Worry is like a rocking chair.
"It gives you something to do, but it gets you nowhere."

One of the places I experience fear of being happy, or even just satisfied, when I am repressing desires. During my early empty nest years, my strongest desire was to have my babies as babies again. I plied radical acceptance to that one and was then freer to find alternate choices in that cauldron of repressed desires. Is there such a thing as parenting without repressing desires? There were/are more than enough other more realistic repressed desires in that cauldron to build a life on.

Another place I suffer that fear is PTSD related. It's part of, "Hyper-vigilance" and damaged self-esteem.

Keep writing it out, Marian. Your own answers are in there.

I feel the same. I wake up in immediate panic every morning. Dreading another awful day. When evening comes I usually feel better and more calm “sane” even. I sleep fine but I wake up at 630 every single morning shaking and heart racing. It’s almost unbearable sometimes. It’s been about a month of this and I am at my wits end. I start therapy Thursday. I hope it helps. It helps having people to relate too, that’s for sure. I am sorry to hear about your mom. I lost my grandma almost 2 years ago. She practically raised me. I handled it well and now my doctor thinks I am experiencing “delayed grief” and PTSD. Grief is so weird.

Makkam. It’s horrible right? Time for me now is bedtime and I’m not feeling that way so the fact that I know when I awaken in the morning it starts again is super upsetting. I’m so tired of it. I hope therapy helps you.