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Falcon05
Falcon05

I really don’t know how I’m supposed to feel about things anymore. I find myself doing things simply to do them but not because I feel any joy doing it. I go to the gym because I know I should but not necessarily because its good for me or that I feel good afterwards and that’s just one example. I find myself just being afraid. Scared to live again and scared to hope and dream again. My last instance of being exceptionally hopeful and optimistic left me feeling barren and scares me into not wanting to believe in anything anymore. I was watching Shawshank Redemption the other day and Tim Robbins’ character mentioned that you either get busy living or get busy dying, and I am certainly doing the latter. I’m simply afraid to hope that things will get better, afraid to hope that I will climb out, afraid to hope that I won’t feel alone all the time despite being surround by people, afraid to hope that I’ll beat depression and my negativity. Afraid to hope, but more so afraid to live again, to believe again.

arfie
arfie
gentle empathy, falcon. i have suffered enough loss and disappointment in life that my fear of still more loss and disappointment is far greater than my fear of dying. but then we get to the purgatory of life in the fearful margins. . . can i see what is behind door number 3?

sigh. . .

here's to finding the courage to take a risk.

p.s. i love shawshank redemption. even red had some good things to say about hope by the end of the movie.
Community LeaderMid
Mid
Joy comes from within you. Writing it out will help you to find the spark of joy and to use that to take the next step.

When you are writing it out, you're releasing all of the words, and that helps make it easier the next time you 'do thinking'.

Get up, get moving, and keep on moving.
mtd
mtd
Life is a series of ups and downs. It’s also a series of cause and effect. How we deal with it is what makes us stronger or breaks us into a thousand pieces. Right now you are letting yourself be broken, purely through ignorance. The not knowing there is a better way to think and perceive life. Your judgment is entirely on your feelings, not on reality. If you really look around you, you will see people carrying on in life with hope. What is the difference? They believe in themselves, they have the confidence and knowledge to get through the rough times with faith and hope. They weren’t broken, they got stronger. Your apathy is your own self imposed prison because of one simple thing, fear. It is a mighty emotion and can snuff the light and joy out of anyone if they let it. But there is hope and light if you will give it a chance. And that means you have to work on yourself, take a good look at yourself and decide if you want to believe what you think or work toward changing your thinking. It is possible and help is available. Research the work of Dr Claire Weekes. You can also find videos of her on you tube. Her work changed me, it can change you if you will let it.
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