Sometimes meds need to be changed. I got lucky on the first try. My hubby who has more serious mental health issues had to have his changed. Maybe your symptoms of being so leary are for good reasons. They stem from past experiences. Maybe counseling and a different medication would help.

Welcome aboard, and I support what Annie has said. Most of us have good reasons, based on experience, that bring us to DS. Anxiety likes to partner up with insomnia, and also depression. We do get better at handling life. Hugs.

Hi Holly, my name is Charlene and I went through almost the same thing you did and I can say that the best thing even before the meds is a really good therapist. They can really help you work things out. Don't be afraid to try more than one out. You want one that you can have a really good connection with so they understand what you are going through. You should be able to get a list of therapists through your doctor. You can also find out if they prescribe medication as some do this as well. Good Luck!

I got the same thing. Tried meds didn’t really help. The doc wasn’t helpful at all. She said exercise would help. Too bad it was snowing outside. Just take it day by day. Eventually you learn how to manage it. My anxiety comes mainly at night. I don’t know why I can get through the day pretty easy. The anxiety ramps up around 11-12 at night when I lay down. If I wake up in the middle of the night forget about it. Takes 20-30 min to fall back asleep. I just talk to myself about something. Usually what I’m going to do the next day to better myself. I never do anything but talking about it helps put me at ease.

Hi Holly, I agree with Charlene. If medication isn't helping you feel better maybe try going to a therapist. Last year Holly around this time I was in a very dark place. I thought anxiety was going to dictate my life. I felt so alone so empty so tired of fighting it, so I gave in. I didn't come to work for a whole week, I didn't want to get out of bed, eat, shower, or see anyone all I wanted was to cry and be alone in my miserable life. I tried a therapist after that week, I would see her once or twice a week depending on how urgent it was to see her. She helped out soo much i cant even tell you Holly. So i stopped taking all the medication i was on and tried to think of all the positive things my therapist would tell me. I still suffer from anxiety every day it is something that its never going to go away but we gotta learn to live with it and to take control over it. Trust me all of us here know what you are describing so you are not alone you have all of us with you and we will not let you fall. you got this okay. Hugs and prayers.

I'm gonna sound like a broken record here, but hope someone will see this and it will click.
MOST of anxiety is caused by several things. A big part or most of it (I'm speaking from experience and extensive research) is from a poor diet and we become nutrient deficient.......mostly magnesium, potassium, and Omega 3 deficient. First off food is different from 100 years ago. There is all kinds of gmo's, toxins, and missing essential minerals that when depleted cause anxiety and a host of other issues.
PPL NEED 4,700 mgs of potassium DAILY. It must be balanced with sodium (Himalayan or sea salt). Also magnesium is another HUGE deficiency as our soil is depleted of it.....big time.
The American diet consists of fast food and prepackaged food which have zero.....zip.....nada.....no nutrients....plus they add toxins as preservatives.....and they add fortified vitamins which are fake and worhtless.
The doctors are not versed in nutrition and send you to a dietitian to sort it out. They only do blood test that the insurance companies allow them to do. You have to ASK for a B12 blood test. The doctors tell you that your acid reflux is due to too much acid when in fact 80% of the population doesn't have enough so they prescribe Prilosec and other such meds to cut the acid....hence depleting you further of stomach acid. You HAVE to have a certain amount of acid (HCA) in your stomach in order to absorb the vitamins and clean and break down your food.
You might not think this pertains to having anxiety/panic attacks/ and yes.....insomnia and racing thoughts.....but it does. It actually plays a HUGE part in your total well being and not just physical.
Google what foods contain potassium and magnesium. Are you eating any of those foods? Are you eating enough to keep your levels where they should be?
Talk to your doctor. Mine was not interested unless it was a script.....so that is when I ventured out into natural supplements (not from Walgreens or Walmart as they are synthetic).
I'm not a doctor nor can I cure you, but I am going off my own experience.
Trust me....I had 5 decades of anxiety and panic attacks which led me to what I know today. I am still learning and have taken the past 2 years to heal and I have about 3 more to go. I am feeling better all the time. It took about 3 months before I could tell a big difference. It takes time to heal decades of poor diet and self abuse to the body.
If you have 25% of your liver left......it will heal itself.
The only time I have anxiety is if I don't have enough potassium or magnesium that day. I have to work at it and stay on top of it.

I also exercise and stretch about 4-5 times a week. I keep hydrated.
I turn off negative media and only hang with positive peeps. I'm careful who I let in my life.....that includes relatives!
I do deep breathing. I have spent 28 years working through horrible childhood abuse, gang rape, death of my brother/my best friend, ritual abuse, and a host of other issues through hospitalization and extensive therapies.
There is healing when you make it to the other side.
There are days I thought I wouldn't make it. I even attempted suicide to end the pain and "learned helplessness".
I refuse to be a slave to pharma who seems to have no cure. I'm a die hard after the cure. This is just me tho.

I do recommend you talk to your doctor and if you are not satisfied, you have the right to find a doctor who is interested and knowledgeable in natural/organic paths to health.
If you think it is too expensive, take a good look at your monthly insurance premium. Look at your co pays for doctors and meds.......and whatever other expenses your insurance doesn't pay......also the deductible.
How bout all the missed days at work so you could sit in a doctors filled office for hours for a 15 minute visit?
Then there is the side effects of the medicines or the doctor who doesn't know what to do, so they send you off to a "specialist".
I didn't think I could afford a healthy lifestyle, but am actually impressed at all the money I save from NOT going to my doctor becuz I am healthier goes towards good quality food and supplements that don't have harmful side effects.

This is my shiny nickels worth. You have to put in the work, but it is well worth it. It is a process and takes time. Even pharma meds take time to work......or not.
Wishing everyone well being :)

Hey, guys, listen to the eating and vitamin advice. I FEEL ASLEEP OR PASSED OUT, MY CAR RAN OFF ROAD, I HIT A BUMP AND WAS AIRBORNE FOR 15 SECONDS, WOKE UP FLYING IN THE AIR...IN MY CAR. The landing was ROUGH..OUCH... I WAS NOT HURT. A NURSE SUGGESTED A VITAMIN D CHECK. I BARELY HAD ANY IN MY BODY..! DID YOU KNOW WITH NOT ENOUGH VIT D CAUSES HALLUCINATIONS.. it MIND and BODY.. I had lab test on vitamin D. The test I needed was that extensive testing of vitamin D. Then it showed up. To heal..ITS MIND AND BODY. And yah, I am lazy also. And yah, it works with depression. IT ALL IS RELATED.

hi holly21. It sounds like you are having a rough time. I'm sorry you are having a rough time. Have you considered returning to your doctor to let him know that the medication is not working? Sometimes it takes several tries before you find a medication that help your symptoms. I know you feel like everyone is trying to hurt you but there are some good people in the world. Have you considered reading some positive affirmations before bed? Maybe this will put your thoughts on a different focus to help you sleep. There is hope for your future. Don't give up.. Best wishes.

Hi holly❤️
I’m here if you ever want to talk. Sometimes just talks my to someone will make a world of difference. It won’t take all your problems away but it will help clear your mind so you can think more clearly and sometimes with anixity we feel like we’re drowning, like every little thing that can go wrong will go wrong, but when you talk it all out it honestly helps. You’ll be ok even if it doesn’t seem like it now. Don’t be afraid to reach out.