Anxiety Support Group
Anxiety is a physical condition marked by intense and persistent feelings of distress, fear, angst or dread. General anxiety caused by routine day-to-day stresses usually passes quickly and is experienced by almost everyone at one time or another. However, such feelings that linger over time and are very difficult to cope with, and which lack a clear cause, may indicate...
I am 63 years old my husband 71 I now have a stroong yearning for a man with some muscles to take me in his arms. That doesnt have medical problems and loves me. I am not sure if Gareth does love me anymore, its just respect. Since he had prostrate cancer months ago now he hasnt come near me. We kiss and thats it. I regret falling for sommeoone so much older than me. but whats done is done. I fell for him at first sight, or was it the car, which was quite smart and we never had one. Also my mother was constantly on to me to get married at a joke, but I got to the poiint when I couldnt stand it anymore.
I just hope this feeling just goes away. I cant see my self having an affair, but also having Emma or Gareth with me all the time, the opportunity wont happen.
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I haven't written in my diary on my computer since May because I thought that my computer was dying. I got away from writing but my computer is hanging in there. I think that I will start writing in it again. It's so therapeutic.
I remember how I spun stories in my mind to go to sleep, for years, until I married the current husband and started to have a calmer life. I would spin stories of myself living in historical situations but also finding a man who really loves me. And my husband has gone through some serious abdominal surgeries and is on a drug that kills his libido. He was a magnificent lover both times in our lives that we were together (still are together but he has no libido). He taught me that I wasn't frigid as my first husband would accuse me because I didn't want to do the nasty things he did.
My recurrent UTIs and then the hip injuries have made things difficult or scary also. I get this.
Yes, what's done is done. Maybe you need more outlets for yourself, more ways to do things that aren't just caregiving. Hugs to you.
and still i feel the urges
and still i yearn
i am beginning to suspect there are urges we carry long beyond our ability to fulfill them, just suspecting while i let the urges be a pleasant interruption to my day. it is what it is, whether i understand it or knot.
My ex husband was 7 yrs older than me. He wanted us to save ourselves till marriage, so I agreed. We had a lot of sex on our honeymoon, but he wouldn't touch me after that. No medical reason that I am aware of. Maybe he completely lost interest? Idk. I struggled for 10 yrs to make things work. But ultimately divorced him. Leaving one's spouse hanging like that is very destructive to the marriage. I hope Gareth is willing to try putting some effort into meeting your needs.