today my feelings and emotions are really mixed and down, I’m training to become a barber, and was working in a barbershop for a woman called Stacey the problem is she has given me the odd help but mostly I go there and she goes out for hour to the shops or for a sun bed, I’m not fully qualified to know what to do it I was unable to do something or I mess up I’ve told her this, she had gone on holiday and my anxiety has been that bad that I was unable to open on Tuesday, baring in my I don’t get paid by her it’s voluntary just for me to have the help I needed while I was qualifiying my level to, the other day I had a text of her saying how disappointed she is that I didn’t open and that her business comes first, this to me is a load of crap because she doesn’t want to do it anymore and wants to just pass it to me as she has just got back with her husband and when they separated she told a lot of things not nice things reasons for people to hate him and then they got back together so she is running away from the problem before the man gets out of prison, so she doesn’t want the shop and because she is still in a 2 year lease and can’t break the contract she says she is helping me but she isn’t and the thing is the shop isn’t busy at all because she opens and closes when she wants to. So it’s all rubbish really I’m not taking it from her or the way she had messaged me and normally I would totally fly of the handle and reply with some home truths but I just can not be bothered. She can keep her shop I’m going to qualify while finishing st my partners salon but look for part time barbering work else where. I just feel so down and emotional, what can I really do I want psopl to see me for me but keep having bad nervous and anxiety and it’s getting in the way of my career