Early recovery is very overwhelming. Essentially, we are asked to change everything. What I've learned after a few 24 is that I really only need to change one thing, the way I think because my problems are centered in my mind. I have a perception/perspective defect. Being open-minded is essential to my recovery because the result is that everything does change. If you're new, don't use the magnitude of the task as justification to drink. Talk to others in recovery about how they started to think differently and you'll be amazed how everything seems to follow.
BUT----how hard it is for me to NOT give up-------For those who don't know---I HATE myself---my looks---etc----how can I accept things that I cannot change when they are apparent 24/7?????? I attempted suicide twice because I view me as detestful!!!If you don't know my story and would like to---read journals or I'll be glad to share---Thank you for your time and I appreciate any and all advice
"Forgive yourself for not knowing better at the time.Foriver yourself for giving away your power.Forgive yourself for past behaviours. Forgive yourself for the survival patterns and traits you picked up while enduring trauma.Forgive yourself for being who you needed to be."-Unknown