Steph, I'm sorry you're in a bad place. While I wont say quitting is easy, I surrendered and with the help of AA, have had pretty much no desire to drink for a couple of years.

There are lots of methods to stop drinking and using. A good support system helps too. I wish you the best.

Thank you!!

I had some issues that triggered my drinking like stress and depression. Once I got those under control, it was a little easier to stay sober.

I was put on Pristiq for depression which was one of the newer antidepressant medications at the time and it got rid of those feelings of loss and isolation that made me not want to live anymore.

I got rid of the stress by quitting my job since that was where most of my stress was coming from.

That was 8 years ago. Today I am happier now then I have ever been which is a complete reversal to how I felt when I was drinking where I didn't care if I lived or died.

I think if you talk to your doctor about your depression and drinking, he will point you in the right direction..

God Bless

It's freaking tough! I tried quitting drinking for about 7 years. Finally I decided to try getting sober. There is a difference. One is thinking about what you are missing and the other is thinking about what I have gained.

It is a challenge but the reward of not HAVING to drink is a very good feeling. I never did anything for myself and was always trying To always help others but in the end I was a hopeless drunk that basically HAD to drink everyday. I was addicted

To break the chain took some work to figure out what made me drink, learn how to diflect those problems and cope without booze

For me booze was not the problem it was the solution.

Today I have the choice to drink and I choose to stay sober.

It's not easy but it's worth it

1is2many

I was doing really well for about 6 days and then last night I had the rest of the Vodka from the freezer (small amount) and it tasted so good..So it is start over again.

It is not easy, Steph! I have had many false starts before in the last two years. But since I joined this group, I feel I have more strength. I check in every day here and read the experiences and stories of others. Realizing I am not alone in this really helps.

All the time! Just ride the wave. I gotta keep telling myself that.

Yes, Steph - me too. It is a flippin nightmare to say the least especially when your other half can quite happily have a glass of beer with dinner and that's it (and that's a half glass). I agree that this site is the best thing ever.

Sometimes the honesty is brutal and scary but needs to be read.
Big hug hun.
G.